i've hit the rock bottom this time

What have you learned from the experience? What caused it? What are you doing to fix it? 

This year was soo strange for me man.Like...i've started doing all kinds of stuff and investing time and money in things...i ve sort of neglected school even if i promised i will study a minimul of 1h daily...i didn't...i had trouble moving around apartments...had that in mind and lost focus on other things i guess...i "burned" a lot of money on crap...i was the cause of all this...and i m the one who will and has to fix it.
I have to find a way to make money to pay my year(something around 1000$...which is much less then in US...but the min wage is also much less here)...i m a good poker grinder...i can start looking for a job in IT and at the same time start working my ass off and learn serious skill in this area...if this dont work...i will have to work a shitty job just for some scratch...

Right now...i feel a pain inside me...like a shame of some sort...maybe because i've created some expectations for my parents that work hard and had trust in me i m a MEGA geek that rules computers and shit...

have any of you had to deal with a situation like this?how did u managed to handle it?

Sounds like that kind of course doesn't stir you the right way though, inherently. You sure it's the right course for you

He's a young turd, most guys are.. he needs to get his head in the grind and get an education. All these "western society" dipshits talking about "what moves you" is asinine. Get the education stop being a prissy puss and learn to be able to support yourself. From THERE you can figure out how to branch out and become an entrepreneur.

Stirs as in brings out the best in you, not what moves you makes you emotional and pussyish. It's like with gf's, date girls...the best one's are always the one's where you've done less 'work' and her personality somehow made it a lot easier.

This is a great learning lesson man. This happened to me last year. I had to get two $9.50 an hour jobs, I started reading books about money, taxes, and investing, I went DEEP with some Eckhart tolle and just let time pass. It may be hard to see now but you'll end up seeing new opportunities. This may sound cliche and it will be hard but go deep in acceptance of what is happening to you and just be grateful for what you do have. Opportunities will start to show up and so will new ideas. Oh and don't fucking worry about what your parents think. This isn't their fucking life

But once again you will not know that until you are good with women. E.g. getting an education 

Yes.. true. Even after two colleg degrees and a stint as a military officer I still had two part-time jobs after getting out. Even tried selling door to door to raise that skill set. 

What you're facing now is GROWTH. I'm literally not at all concerned by your current life circumstances, lol. ;) 

I think what you are worried about is the fact that you've demonstrated a lack of poor judgment and work ethic in how you've conducted yourself recently, and yes of course that is reason for concern. But the fact you feel it so hard indicates to me that you are self-correcting. You will be fine. Work hard, stay true, eat your vegetables, grow your skill set, win.

this might be the biggest shake-up of my life...i feel like a bad part of my brain fried...yes...i was very angry on myself for doing/not doing some crucial things  to not let this thing happen...all in all i think this punch landed early enough for me wake up and see that...even if i were to move on ...passing the exams with the minimum grade(like 70% of the people here) ...after i was to finish...i was not going to have the set of skill to get a nice job ...now i m forced to get skills ...first i was thinking:"man...i've lost a year..." ...then i realized that i didn't lost shit...maybe some people dont get a hard lesson like this util they are older and can't deal with it...and from the shock...they will do stupid things like suicide and retarded shit like that...i wanted the way of the wolf...not the sheep...and it's not that easy to be the wolf...u have to fight for that

Exactly, you young bad motherfucker.

Wish you'd gotten physically kicked in the balls as well. Teach you a lesson! >:o!!

the inner pain i felt was of 100 nuts kicks...for sure put a mental scar i will hold with me forever from now...thanks for the feedback...much appreciated...

That's a quality line man. Bang out that kinda wisdom often and things will kick on quick.

Agreed.  You need a skillset and resources first before you can become an entrepreuner.  

These questions.

Then move on.