Been slacking huge lately... time to CHANGE THAT.

YeeeeeeeeA!

So funny when you fall off and don't notice until the effects catch up with you. or one day you feel melancholy and have no idea why.. then its like "oh i've been a shit head the past two weeks with ________" then you take action and every thing is immediately better.

Yeah, it's interesting- I think there are a couple evolutions we go through.

1. No action- In this phase, everything is pretty shitty. Nothing seems to ever come to fruition and most shit is sorta just thoughts and maybe some "confidence" that is just a result of your upbringing/personality but not really based on any actual facts or accomplishments

Then there is that click of like, "Oh shit- I gotta take action"

2. Taking obsessive action- In this phase, it's obsessive and things start to click and stuff starts happening and things are accomplished but it's not sustainable and it's obsessive which leads to the next issue

At this point there is still some of that idealism left over where we think that simply by taking action EVERYTHING will work out the way we want it to lol! I mean, okay, I can't speak for anyone else- but I ABSOLUTELY had this phase. It's like you go from not taking action and then you start to take action and you're like, "Woh- this is it... I just gotta do this and everything will be perfect. I can get everything I want and nobody and nothing can stop me" and the thing is that because you weren't taking ANY action previously- the results skyrocket like CRAZY and it's exciting and that's what keeps you going- it's the novelty and the fact that everyday there seems to be MASSIVE improvement and it's like, "Fuck yeah- this is the shit"

3. The realization that even when you take action- things aren't going to be perfect- In this stage, you start to mature a little bit. Life hardens you and you kinda sack up a bit and come down to earth and you realize, "Okay, so not everything is going to be perfect and I may not be the best EVEN IF I take action... but the only other alternative is to not take action... so even if shit may not be perfect- I only got one option... gotta keep taking action.

It's in this last phase that shit starts to happen even more because this last realization is what allows you to remain unreactive to the shit life throws at you.

Honestly speaking- I've seen some super whack shit happen to REALLY REALLY solid people. Like guys who take MASSSIVE action and completely take themselves out of a horrible situation and rise up on their own merit and hard work.

One of my best friends grew up in the ghetto of arizona on the border of mexico slingin drugs and runnin errands for gangs and ended up TALKING HIS WAY INTO COLUMBIA UNIVERSITY- I shit you not... the dude didn't even take the SATs lol- he literally TALKED his way into an ivy league school (He's one of the smartest dudes I know but he just didn't have the money to take the SATs at the time). Came to new york with a couple hundred dollars to his name, and is now working at a major investment bank. Worked 5 jobs at the same time while taking a HUGE course load- man is a TRUE hustler

Took summer school classes at the same time as he was working full time at an investment bank and fucked his professor so she would let him take the midterm after hours because he couldn't take it during the allotted time... lol I shit you not- this guy has done some crazy shit.

This dude just had every possession to his name stolen from him and it fucking SUCKS. I got a message from him today and have been working with him to get some of this handled but it's stupid that this kinda stuff seems to happen to the people who seem to deserve it the least.

Anyway- that's my rant.

Thats so hard.