Something I've been Considering and am Finally Committing To
Mon, 04/22/2013 - 01:01
This is going to come across a little extreme- and it definitely is but I wouldn't have it any other way.
I'm deciding to commit, for one year, to delving as far into Buddhism as I can. I've dabbled with it and mediated a bunch but never really fully dove in like I have with pickup... so yeah, I'm doing it. I shouldn't have the tag, "BuddhaGames" for nothing.
So, what does this entail?
1. No drinking for one year
2. I will not actively be going out to bars/clubs at night (I will still be interacting with girls- I'll just be finding other places to do it in)- so I will still be posting
3. I'll be studying the Sutras, meditating and reading buddhist texts, as proscribed to me by my teacher (yes, I'm weird and have a "teacher") haha
4. I will be adhering to the 5 precepts:
1. I undertake the training rule to abstain from taking life.
2. I undertake the training rule to abstain from taking what is not given.
3. I undertake the training rule to abstain from sexual misconduct.
4. I undertake the training rule to abstain from false speech.
5. I undertake the training rule to abstain from fermented drink that causes heedlessness.
These are all very interprtable and part of what I'll be doing is studying each one of these to find out what each one "really" means, to ME. These aren't like the 10 commandments, or some dogma that you have to follow in a specific way- but are much more up to interpretation for each individual, so my own path will, in part, be to find out what these precepts actually mean to me and how I want to follow them.
6. I will be meditating every day on my own and going to temple at least 2 times/week
7. I'm probably crazy
I'm doing this for 1 year and then will see where I'm at from there.
I am also going to start my own blog to track my progress with this- I'll throw up the link when the blog is running and anyone who wants to follow my progress can do so on there- along with whatever extra stuff I might post on here.
I've realized that, for me, "pickup" probably isn't my path. But I won't ever know what it is unless I allow myself the opportunity to explore other areas of self development. I have a feeling that I will end up in a similar place but this is my path, at least for the time being
-See you fellas on the other side
: )
I'm deciding to commit, for one year, to delving as far into Buddhism as I can. I've dabbled with it and mediated a bunch but never really fully dove in like I have with pickup... so yeah, I'm doing it. I shouldn't have the tag, "BuddhaGames" for nothing.
So, what does this entail?
1. No drinking for one year
2. I will not actively be going out to bars/clubs at night (I will still be interacting with girls- I'll just be finding other places to do it in)- so I will still be posting
3. I'll be studying the Sutras, meditating and reading buddhist texts, as proscribed to me by my teacher (yes, I'm weird and have a "teacher") haha
4. I will be adhering to the 5 precepts:
1. I undertake the training rule to abstain from taking life.
2. I undertake the training rule to abstain from taking what is not given.
3. I undertake the training rule to abstain from sexual misconduct.
4. I undertake the training rule to abstain from false speech.
5. I undertake the training rule to abstain from fermented drink that causes heedlessness.
These are all very interprtable and part of what I'll be doing is studying each one of these to find out what each one "really" means, to ME. These aren't like the 10 commandments, or some dogma that you have to follow in a specific way- but are much more up to interpretation for each individual, so my own path will, in part, be to find out what these precepts actually mean to me and how I want to follow them.
6. I will be meditating every day on my own and going to temple at least 2 times/week
7. I'm probably crazy
I'm doing this for 1 year and then will see where I'm at from there.
I am also going to start my own blog to track my progress with this- I'll throw up the link when the blog is running and anyone who wants to follow my progress can do so on there- along with whatever extra stuff I might post on here.
I've realized that, for me, "pickup" probably isn't my path. But I won't ever know what it is unless I allow myself the opportunity to explore other areas of self development. I have a feeling that I will end up in a similar place but this is my path, at least for the time being
-See you fellas on the other side
: )
Mon, 04/22/2013 - 04:46
#1
#2 will sneak up and lightly
#2 will sneak up and lightly cup your balls when you're not looking, every 5 minutes. That is the one you really need to break down and think about. But also understand at the same time that uhh.. it really ain't conducive with a sales job, buddy.
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Mon, 04/22/2013 - 05:03
#2
Yes- number 2 is very
Yes- number 2 is very important... seems like we're always "stealing" on some level
But they are all important on a similar level.
Thanks for that man- def. gonna be a ride
Edit: And yeah, looking at all of them- #2 def. seems like the most prominent in my life right now. When I look at it now- I almost think to myself, "How the fuck does anyone, possibly adhere to this , ever?"
But they are all important on a similar level.
Thanks for that man- def. gonna be a ride
Edit: And yeah, looking at all of them- #2 def. seems like the most prominent in my life right now. When I look at it now- I almost think to myself, "How the fuck does anyone, possibly adhere to this , ever?"
Mon, 04/22/2013 - 06:25
#3
It's weird because in doing
It's weird because in doing this I keep telling myself to actually let go of the whole "girls" thing- I can't do what I'm about to do, for girls- it won't be the same. I legit have to let go of any detachment to outcome- including girls.
I've looked for refuge in many places, outside of myself, and recently, it's been with girls, among other things. It's also why I don't really "promote" the buddhist stuff to anyone on the forums much- because I don't think there is anyone I've met on the forums who I could talk to about this and be like, "Yeah man, you should totally just do this" because it can't be done for girls- it can't be done for ANYTHING... it just has to be what you know you have to do.
I'm in the process of letting go of a lot of things in my life- not in some crazy weird "Bailing on all my possessions" way lol- I promise guys- I'm still "sane" but in a way that I haven't quite experienced before... truly letting go of that attachment to outcome that causes so much pain and frustration- Like truly letting go of that "attachment to outcome" is, on some level, just another level of letting go of our ego and there are so many layers to this, I'm simply going through another one of those layers and it feels very unique- it allows us to access a part of ourselves that just isn't available most of the time.
What's weird is that in order to take an action without attachment to its outcome, it's almost necessary for that action to simply arise and come from a place of total selflessness, almost like you're watching the action take place, without being a part of it- without "owning" it.
It's why I've recently said and done some things that I just haven't had access to in the past. And the funny part is that the second we recognize this for what it is, we automatically add something to it and.... iTS GONE- just as quick and quietly as it arrived.
I'm just going through a process of finding out a lot of new things about myself and delving into the experience of ME on a level that I haven't really touched before.
What I think a lot of guys don't realize is that there is nothing you can do to speed up the natural course of events- it's like you ask yourself, "I work so hard and try so much to succeed with women and yet it seems like this process is so slow"- it's because, as I'm now recognizing- it's not about speeding anything up- it's about letting go and in the process, slowing down. Just let go of that insane need to be successful and to fuck tons of chicks- completely let go of it and leave that little boy behind- But it's okay to hold onto goals and desires- we just have to learn to come at it from an ego-free place, a place of total detachment from outcome, a place where we can watch the action take place but not feel a need to own its outcome
Let go of that detachment from outcome but stick with your intent- because the intent is simply your actions - but let go of the outcome - completely let go and just accept your actions as the source of your validation.
I have a lot of thoughts right now, unique and new thoughts that I really need to get out there and let float around.
It's so difficult and takes so much courage for Me to take the leap of faith and put MYSELF on the line. It's such an incredible quality and a gift unto itself. A gift to MYSELF. To allow myself to experience life fully is what it is. To experience pain and pleasure as they arise and go away, can only be found in the experience of authentic self expression and in the experience of moment after moment taking that leap of faith.That is one form of compassion for myself in addition to taking care of the vessel that, that very experience is carried within. A body and mind
I've looked for refuge in many places, outside of myself, and recently, it's been with girls, among other things. It's also why I don't really "promote" the buddhist stuff to anyone on the forums much- because I don't think there is anyone I've met on the forums who I could talk to about this and be like, "Yeah man, you should totally just do this" because it can't be done for girls- it can't be done for ANYTHING... it just has to be what you know you have to do.
I'm in the process of letting go of a lot of things in my life- not in some crazy weird "Bailing on all my possessions" way lol- I promise guys- I'm still "sane" but in a way that I haven't quite experienced before... truly letting go of that attachment to outcome that causes so much pain and frustration- Like truly letting go of that "attachment to outcome" is, on some level, just another level of letting go of our ego and there are so many layers to this, I'm simply going through another one of those layers and it feels very unique- it allows us to access a part of ourselves that just isn't available most of the time.
What's weird is that in order to take an action without attachment to its outcome, it's almost necessary for that action to simply arise and come from a place of total selflessness, almost like you're watching the action take place, without being a part of it- without "owning" it.
It's why I've recently said and done some things that I just haven't had access to in the past. And the funny part is that the second we recognize this for what it is, we automatically add something to it and.... iTS GONE- just as quick and quietly as it arrived.
I'm just going through a process of finding out a lot of new things about myself and delving into the experience of ME on a level that I haven't really touched before.
What I think a lot of guys don't realize is that there is nothing you can do to speed up the natural course of events- it's like you ask yourself, "I work so hard and try so much to succeed with women and yet it seems like this process is so slow"- it's because, as I'm now recognizing- it's not about speeding anything up- it's about letting go and in the process, slowing down. Just let go of that insane need to be successful and to fuck tons of chicks- completely let go of it and leave that little boy behind- But it's okay to hold onto goals and desires- we just have to learn to come at it from an ego-free place, a place of total detachment from outcome, a place where we can watch the action take place but not feel a need to own its outcome
Let go of that detachment from outcome but stick with your intent- because the intent is simply your actions - but let go of the outcome - completely let go and just accept your actions as the source of your validation.
I have a lot of thoughts right now, unique and new thoughts that I really need to get out there and let float around.
It's so difficult and takes so much courage for Me to take the leap of faith and put MYSELF on the line. It's such an incredible quality and a gift unto itself. A gift to MYSELF. To allow myself to experience life fully is what it is. To experience pain and pleasure as they arise and go away, can only be found in the experience of authentic self expression and in the experience of moment after moment taking that leap of faith.That is one form of compassion for myself in addition to taking care of the vessel that, that very experience is carried within. A body and mind
Mon, 04/22/2013 - 07:09
#4
And yeah, you don't have to
And yeah, you don't have to do this. All you're doing is trading a lot for a little, that can be gained in a multitude of other ways. Also, as your first violation of #2, assuming I'm supporting you in this and thanking me for it. Pff
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- Autismus Terminus Finis (Root Cause/Cure of Autism Epidemic)
- Called Off My Wedding & Other Turn Tail Signs Of The American Male
Mon, 04/22/2013 - 07:15
#5
lol I love how much you
I would say that there is nothing to be gained by doing this.