Girl ignoring me, felt butthurt, now remembered I'm awesome
Mon, 09/17/2012 - 22:02
We've hung out a few times over the past 3 months since I've met her. Clicked together awesome. She's really cute too, independent. A really awesome girl. She lives farrrr away so I don't get to see her as often as Id like. Last week was the first time I haven't seen her in over 2.5 weeks so I have her a call and we vibed amazingly for almost an hour late at night on Tuesday. Then thurs I sent a non needy text. Nothing. But it was kinda weird one so Next morning I sent another one. Nothing. So I left it till yesterday cause We talked about meeting up tonight since she's coming into town. And sent her another text that didn't require a reply but still wouldve got her to reenagage. So she's on her way to town now, and haven't talked to her since we had an amazing phone convo last week. Soo I was thinking what I did wrong, what she thought of me after the phone call, what's the matter with the texts I sent, did one of her friends who knows me say something? I got a little wounded. It hurt. I was sad. I wanted to hang with this girl tonight.
Then I said fuck it. I literally loled at the stupid pain I felt and carried on with my day. Texted a bunch of numbers from the weekend, laughed my face off with my friend, vibed with an older couple when I picked something up from their place, ate well, meditated, got some work done and worked out. Now I'm about to leave to a dinner with some friends guys/girls and chill out.
I could give a fuck less about this girl now. Feels good man. I mean I'd like her to call me and come hang but it doesn't hurt anymore since she isn't. I remember bak to my last oneitis and it was horrible. Such an icky feeling. In one of te recent videos Tyler says how you remember what happened with another girl and just "change the channel. I dont like that movie." haha that's exactly what I did. I recognized the stupid, irrational feelings I was getting for her and the ones I felt after she ignored me and said nope these are gay and led to horrible things for me last time. Next!
Fuck oneitis. It just smashes you off your centre. So lame. Glad I got over it. Going to really stay strong and present the next little bit so I can avoid sending stupid crap to this girl. I'll probably just forget her for a while.
Then I said fuck it. I literally loled at the stupid pain I felt and carried on with my day. Texted a bunch of numbers from the weekend, laughed my face off with my friend, vibed with an older couple when I picked something up from their place, ate well, meditated, got some work done and worked out. Now I'm about to leave to a dinner with some friends guys/girls and chill out.
I could give a fuck less about this girl now. Feels good man. I mean I'd like her to call me and come hang but it doesn't hurt anymore since she isn't. I remember bak to my last oneitis and it was horrible. Such an icky feeling. In one of te recent videos Tyler says how you remember what happened with another girl and just "change the channel. I dont like that movie." haha that's exactly what I did. I recognized the stupid, irrational feelings I was getting for her and the ones I felt after she ignored me and said nope these are gay and led to horrible things for me last time. Next!
Fuck oneitis. It just smashes you off your centre. So lame. Glad I got over it. Going to really stay strong and present the next little bit so I can avoid sending stupid crap to this girl. I'll probably just forget her for a while.