New To This Forum (INSANE PromAfterParty Field Report)

what up guys, Kid kaz here.

found this forum from reading buddahgames fieldreports on RSDnation. (i dig ur gamestyle man)
&for whatever reason it won't allow me to signup there...

so, i don't really know how else to put this but im kinda in an unknown headspace with my game/development.

don't really know what steps i should be taking..

its summerbreak here, out of highschool. and this is the time i should be romping and all but i have no car to go to places where i can game. (parties w/e)
even if i did have a car/ride, i'm not ever invited to the parties people throw, not that i ever even hear about them..rarely..
only party i did goto this year (about two & half months ago) was the senior prom afterparty.

FIELD REPORT
i'm thinkin "fuck yeaa!! bout time i get to romp!" *dream come true feeling* ha
the party was mostly asians&indians (the hosts were two asian & indian guys) i knew them both.
before i go i'm listening to my favorite party tunes, getting my state pumped feeling good, telling myself its all gonna b alrite. shits gonna go down super smooth. just stay in a good mood no matter what and thats all that matters. , just hav fun.
--get to the party, see all the people i know standing outside, everythings chill. some chick who i talked to for prob 2 seconds... (just said hi & smiled nothing big) and walked away from to talk to my other friends, i noticed was looking at me, and she gave me a nice smile. but i didnt think anything of it i just redirected my eyecontact back to my friends.. (i always thought maybe that was a dick move? she was kindacute... i cudve at least smiled back? idk..)

-get inside the party. music playing, no one dancing yet. i stand around for a bit (not choding..) just relaxing to the scene, checkin the area. then move to another room where the drink was (sum kinda huge jug filled wit spiked fruitpunch lol) i drink enuff just to get a lil buzzed (earlier while walking the party had a few hits of weed with a friend, so i eventually got that weed/alcohol buzz ;3)

everyones dancing now and the parties in full swing, everyone having fun and everythings cool. i go straight up to a chick i thought was the hottest asian girl there and i tried to grind on her, she wasnt having it. so i was like ahhwell... nxt, dance wit a group of bros. (i might hav been the best dancer there, doing ticking moves & the catdaddy hahaa) ...more girls around, so i go up to more chicks start grinding on em. sum AsianChick lets me go-on, so we dance for like 50 seconds, i move on...
throughout the night im just chill...talkin to my homeboys... on my own dancing & few girls and this yummywhitechick ;)
(dance with that AsianChick about 2-3 more times?)

so now im just posted up on the side, chilling... doing my own thing. not really talking to anyone just enjoying the lights,music & my buzz ;3. then outta nowhere
a asian dude comes up to me saying "Aye man you creeping on my sister?!!"

i dont react immediately cuz i was in such a feelgoodrelaxedchill mood and i said to him '....wut?' totally chill-like cuz i rly didnt know wat was goin on either
dudes pissed and hes like 'bro my sister told you're stalking her!'
and im kinda jus puzzled by this whole thing...kinda came outta nowhere since i was just posted to the side not even talkin to anyone
and i tell him 'hah...u joking man?' like seriously, i didnt know wtf was goin on.

dude tells me the AsianChick i danced wit a few times was his sister (the one that LET me dance wit her) and she felt like i was following her around and stalking her.... wow...

after i hear this i just remain chill and tell the guy that i don't know what hes talking about and i'm not tryin to creep or anyting, and that i don't even know this chick.

he remains pissed off yelling in my face and 2 of his friends come up and are just posted up. not sayin anything yet.

after that i'm just like wtf about this whole thing....i started thinkin a bit negative stuff like, why im always the outcast, why everyones always against me, why people don't just let me chill and have fun and always lash out and make me look like a bad guy.

next time i see the dude we're outside. and im about 20 feet from him and he starts mugging me (eyeing me aggressively) and i walk up to him still sorta in my feelgoodrelaxedchill mood so i come up to him trying to make peace and all. and hes still pissed off. still yelling at me and saying don't go near his sister and shit like that...and this time his friends get in on it. (it was like..if one of us get mad, we ALL get mad kinda deal)

so now i have 3 asian guys. in my face. pissed off. and some dude comes up to me tells me to back away & just leave it alone... nothing i say is gna help this
(sounded like he knew i was just trying to make peace and all)

so i back up. but the asian guys are still going at it. at this point theres about 5-7 of em all lined up in front of me ready to jump me. (surprisingly i was acutally pretty calm & chill about the situation...prob cuz of the weed&alcohol)

then i had sum sorta weird click in my head... it was like sum survival instinct part of me was saying "Look at this situation...this was caused just because you wanted to have a good time and spread good vibes, why should you feel bad at all about this...whose the REAL bad guy here...you?...or them...??'

...they are...

after that...i felt one of the greatest feelings in my life. its like my chakras were unleashed or something hah. and i just stopped talking...and stared...

i made eyecontact with the dude that was doing the most shit-talking (the dude that initially came up to me)..his eyes started twitching&flickering and it sorta looked like he took a step back. he paused...then started talking shit again...as if he wasnt sure what to do since i was staring at him.

then i spoke to them...'aye...i don't wanna fite...but if thats wat happens... i dont hav anything to do wit it...'

after that sum dude with his cameraphone out is like 'Ohhhhhhhhhh! this is going worldstar!!' refering to the webiste worldstarhiphop which has videos of fights and crazy shit..

at this point i get this evildemon snap in my head kinda like... 'everyone here thinks you're the bad guy..you trying to be the peaceful&nice guy is what got you into this mess!.. fuck trying to be peaceful all the time and give them what they WANT!'

i then turned to the dude and i'm like 'FUCK YEA PUT THIS SHIT ON WORLDSTAR!' -after that two guys come from behind me and are holding me back telling me to be the "bigger man" FUCK!!! at this point this is the last thing i wanted to hear. because from the very start thats what i was trying to fucking do >.<"

they advice to walk away from the party and they escort me away... for about 30 mins these two guys are talking to me telling me to relax, telling me im more mature&smarter then them, telling me im the bigger man for walking away...

and i tell these dudes that i fucking hate being smart.. i fucking hate being the nice guy.. i fucking hate being the bigger man. and everyone at school is gonna make rumors saying i got my ass beat for not fighting. (i was absolutely, utterly & totally convinced that i could take all 5-7 of those guys)

as people walk by i'm yelling telling all of them to bring those *racist word*s out here and that i'll fucking murder them all.
i'm tearing up at this point.
and i see a group of asian girls and i start insulting them telling them to go call the guys out here to fight me. this probably made me look like a rabid animal :|

my friend who invited me (indian host of the party) rolled up with his car...he was gonna take me home. but then the asian dudes came up, ready to fight.
dude says 'you crying bro?!'

they surround me at the car. dude starts swinging at me (he totally sucks at striking) and i slap away his punches. he backs up and starts talking shit.
my focus was on him wen some other asian dude runs up ontop of the car and kicks me in my face. (cant lie that was pretty cool....)

after that the indian guy pulls off and im by myself...for a second i had a thought 'oh no! i'm alone!' then that was quickly covered up with 'DESTROYY!!!'

i backup sum, spin around, and face the dude that swung at me earlier... at this point i have 3 guys in front of me & im fuckin ready for war. and they just stand there like chodes for about 5 seconds with there hands up and im like 'bitch wtf is up!!' then outta nowhere this asian chick grabs me and pulls me away....

that shit was starting to feel like a cliche 'saved at the last second' movie scene.

at this point i just give up on the world... and this chick 'pretty hot, i'll give her an 8' was talking to me...telling me the usual 'be the bigger man' shit.

then i start gaming her for the lulz since at this point i just don't care about anyone or anything.

im jus like...'ha...u dont really care about me....wuteverr.... ;)' looking in the eyes and periodically goin down to her lips.

she said sum shit like 'i do care about u, cuz i know ur a smart person..i don't care about those other losers'

in my mind i'm like... "if you were a true thugg u wud go for the makeout"

i move about 5 centimeters closer to her face but i say...'wassup wit it then? ;)' ....im such a loser.... =_=

she said 'naaaaa ha' jokingly...blahblah wutever everything else is irrelevant and i eventually get a ride home....


i'm pretty much stuck at home. just on the computer reading this stuff to keep myself feeling like im at least making sum sort of progress.
sumtimes i get sick of being on the computer all day and work on my karate techniques (been taking it for about 2 months now)
get a lil exercise in.. or maybe go for a walk around my neighborhood, hoping to find someone i know to chill wit for a bit.

right now... i don't have any girls i'm talking to at all...and i dont really know what i can do... all i think of doing for myself is be patient and wait for the days when i can finally go out to clubs frequently. (prob college)
and just ROMP romp ROMP romp ROMP. until i become a walking deity or sumthing...ha