Buddhagames Field Report Thread

@Gogo:

hahaha I get that a lot from girls... it's actually kind of rediculous.

@buddhagames:

Tonight was a cool night.

I went downtown to the lower east side... but first I grabbed a razor after I left my apartment and I was literally shaving on the subway lmao... I was in an empty car with 2 girls on the opposite end and they look at me and I look back at them and even from the entire way across the car, I can tell they are looking at me, so I just laugh and I'm like, "You makin fun of me for shaving?" and they laugh and they're like, "Nooo" hehehe.. and I walk over and chat em up for a bit.. I'm like, "I have a few extra that came in the pack.. here, have one" and she takes it and they are asking me where I'm from and that kinda stuff... I just ignore their questions and tell them about how, only minutes before, I had an AMAZING neckbeard and they start laughing pretty hard... anyway we chat for a bit and they head off

Make my way downtown and as I'm walking to the bar I see a 2 set in front of me on the streat and i go up and I tap the girl on the left on the shoulder and I'm like, "Hey guys, where you goin" and they're like, "Ooo we don't know... where are YOU going?" so I tell them the bar I'm going to and they are like, "OMG that's actually where WERE GOING!!" and so all 3 of us walk to the bar... The physical escalation stuff is becoming more natural for me... I'm starting to just automatically do it...

As we're walking... both girls are asking me questions, like at the same time, and pretty engaged with me... I just ignore their questions and talk about what I want to talk about and like one girl keeps trying to ask me the same quesiton and then complains that I'm ignoring her... so I give her a big hug..

They give me a couple shittests, but they almost just didn't register as shittests... like I would just laugh and completely ignore them. Then we got to the door and by this point, my physical escalation had escalated to the point where I was like grabbing the one girl's waist and giving her hugs and just doin all that little shit... We get into the bar and I'm like, "Come meet my friends!" and she's like, "Okay!" and I grab her hand and we walk over...

It was one of my really good buddies birthdays- so I made an exception to my "alone" rule... But I still pretty much just did my own thing- like approached and walked around by myself... just also gave my buddy the attention and focus that he deserved. It was a good balance of me doing my own thing and also being there for my friend.

At one point- I know the girl is hooked, so I decide to give her some validation and I'm like, "Yeah, you guys have earned the right to meet my friends.. you're pretty cool, so far" and she's like, "You're cool too" ...

Eh so then I meet up with my buddy and a lot of my old friends from school are there, so I introduce her to them and then this girl who, back like 3-4 months ago, when I was in school- she wouldn't even THINK of me as anything more than a goofball friend...she sees me and is like, "OMG BUDDHAGAMES IT'S SOOOOO GOOD TO SEE YOU!!!" and gives me a giant hug and I just hold her there and give her some just DEVASTATING eye contact, while continuing to hold her there in the hug, right up against me... and I have a boner and the sexual tension is there.... she keeps saying how good it is to see me and then tries to kiss me and I pull back (she's good friend with a girl I have a LOT of respect for and who has treated me really well for the last 1.5 years and I didn't want to do anything that I KNOW for a fact would get back to her and hurt her)... she keeps trying to kiss me and I keep rejecting her... eventualyl she tries to play it off like she's giving me eskimo hugs... but then she starts like kissing my chest, right below my necklace.. I keep just holding her there, the sexual tension is crazy... and I'm giving her gnarly eye contact... but I won't kiss her.. and she keeps trying and then at one point she does something kinda crazy..

She looks up at me and legit goes, "My dad is dying" and then tries to kiss me again.... like wtf? Not gonna lie, when she said this I was just like, "Holy shit woman.. you are CRAZY" ... it's funny cause I know some people who have fucked her and they all had said how crazy she is... well, yeah... I def. got a taste of that.

So after she tells me her dad is dying, I still reject her but I'm like, "Wow... I'm sorry to hear that" and just pull her in for a closer hug (I kinda just felt bad for her... cause even if it is crazy... like if her dad is actually dying... damn... she deserves a hug)

Then I see another friend and she pulls me away and introduces me to another girl who I had met before (another girl who, in the past, hadn't given me the time of day) and I give her a hug and I'm instantly doing my physical escalation stuff... damn.. when this stuff gets rolling- the physical escalation is just SO SMOOTH... giving her HUGE eye contact and talking to her while still keeping laser eye contact... I can tell she's starting to melt...

She says we should go find everyone else... so I go in front of her, grab her hand and lead her to the other side of the bar... Keep physically escalating.. Then some other dudes come in and she gets distracted and is talking to them...

I chill out and talk to the other people in the group and would occasionally just look behind me and like pinch her waist or tussle her hair, but without even looking at her (I really like this move... it's just a great way to be like, 'i see you and i'm still thinking of you... but i'm also going to give you your space)...

I head back to the other side of the bar and do a bunch of approaches... some of them blow out... some of them hook.. some of them I was just fuckin around with people, in order to be social

Then I head back over and see her still talking with the dudes so I go up and start getting physical with her again- she's receptive... so then I grab her hand and lead her back to the other side of the bar.. there's only one spot left in the booth so she sits down and tells me to sit on her lap.. I just laugh and tell her to get up.. I sit down and she sits on my lap... we chat for a bit and then after like 5-10 minutes, I tell her to get up, as she's standing I grab her hands and I'm like, "We're gonna go to the bar and I'm gonna get a water" and she holds onto my hand and I lead her back to the bar to get myself some water... she's really into me now.. so we're standing and waiting for my water and she's like grabbing around my stomach and stuff.. So I go in and give her a little makeout/kiss and then I pull back.. she wnats more but I don't give it to her...

Continuing to physically escalate/dominate her.. just tassling her hair and pinching her waist etc. etc...

Grab my water- grab her hand and lead her back to the booth... sit back down in same position- another 10-15 minutes pass.. I chat with some random dudes and then go back to her and she's sitting on my lap- and I'm doing some really cool physical escalation/verbal game stuff that manwhore taught me and she's LOVING it...

One of the guys asks us to stand up so he can scoot into the booth... we get up and I grab her hand and lead her towards the door and just say, "I wanna grab a smoke" and she comes with me outside. ... we chill outside for a bit- chat with some couple who is also smoking...

They leave and she finished her cig and is about to head inside but I grab her hands and tell her... Let's take a walk...

So we start walking and we're just walking down the street and the sexual tension is just CRAZY at this poitn... I pin her up against a wall and give her eye contact... but DONT make out with her... she's DYING...

Keep walking- start going into comfort stuff.. opening up to her a little... sexual tension is still there.. pin her up against another wall and don't kiss her again... finally I break down (I shouldn't have... I really should have jsut kept the tension and REFUSED to make out with her... she was legit getting like upset)... anyway- give her a little makeout... and she keeps asking me for more- I tell her, "just a taste" and she goes, "I want more" ... I just gaze into her eyes without saying anything..

She literally goes, "Ughh.. please... You're making me beg for it"...

I just pull away, grab her hand and lead her across the street to a little park area that's closed off... We hop the fence and go chill on the benches... she's sitting on my lap... it's all kinda crazy... this girl literally didn't give me the time of day when I met her in college...Not that crazy though... just sorta, how it is... I was just being me. I'm an awsome guy. Like I really am... I'm not out to fuck girls over, I'm not out to manipulate or hurt anyone... I'm just a solid dude, out to explore himself and figure out my way in this shit.

So we're sitting there and we make out a bit...

I grab her hand and lead her back and we hop the fence back over and head to the bar... I go for the pull but she's like, 'You can't come back to my place" (I was kinda frusterated here... just wasn't sure what I was supposed to do to get the pull... like I was leading her EVERYWHERE... just didn't know what else to do... probably should've just hailed a cab and seen what happened)..

Anyway- we head back to the bar and I'm like, "Well you can come back to my place... she says no"... k so I drop it.

Head back inside and go and sit down at the booth with some other people...

She heads to the bathroom and my buddy is like... dude, so I asked her what she found the most attractive about you and she literally said, "His confidence"... and I was like, "really? That's interesting.." and he goes, "Yeah.. she also said some stuff about how you're really fun to be around and make her feel good... but she said your confidence was the most attractive part"... just kinda found this to be interesting.

Anyway- rest of the night goes aight... we do more of the same ol' keep physically escalating and basically I decide to just wait it out and see if I can get the, "Well... we're all leaving... I guess I'm just going home with you" type of pull...

So we literally all chill till the bar kicks us all out..

At this point I'm tired as shit.. and she had kinda started to seem slightly "off"... so I didn't push it till the bitter end (I totally should have).... they all get in a taxi and they're like, "Hey, we're going to go smoke at so and so's place.. you want to come" and I'm just like, 'Nah, I'ma head home" (I was just so tired... lol I tried sticking it out... but I pussed out and should have gone for the longplay)... wtvr..

So at this point, my phone is dead so I ask her, "Do you want my #?" and she's like, "Yeah.. I'll just get it from soandso and I'll text you".. so i'm like, "okay cool" and head off...

I wasn't sure if she actually was gonna text me (My buddy said that she'd been fucked over by like 2 guys recently and so was being SUPER SUPER careful about guys who just want sex... but I mean, I had opened up to her a lot... so I had a inkling that she was gonna be down.. also.. I just want to make it clear- that I am NOT going to "play" this girl... I am going to be honest about what I want... but I have a feeling she'll be very receptive)... anyway- get home and charge my phone and I have a text waiting from her

And my other buddy had texted me being like, "Take care of girl, she's a close friend of mine" and I go, "Yeah man. I'm always honest about what I want. I'm not out to fuck anyone over.. Not my style" and he goes, "And I know that about you which is why I told her to go for it"

So looks like it will be on... we'll see

Then after they leave I did one last street approach- plowed with this hot model type girl and she opened up a bit but never really hooked (Always mantained that "arms crossed" body language) and made comments about how I was "staring" at her... as opposed to melting BECAUSE of the stare... funny how that works.

I was happy about tonight, mainly because I let myself just be me. I let go of the expectations I had started to put on myself and I had a really fun night. Felt unstifled and was having a blast.

LESSSONS AND STUFF TO THINK ABOUT:

-Holding sexual tension
-smoothly going for pull after leading
-Sticking in TILL THE BITTER END
-Eye contact
-Constant physical escalation
-Importance of LEADING
-Giving girls space but always coming back and taking what you want


I may think of a few tomorrow... that's it for now.

Writing that last post, really took a weight off my chest. I'm glad I gave myself permission to fail. Glad I gave myself permission to be me, again. No need to have expectations... just keep my "Beginner's Mind" and let the cards fall as they will.

@buddhagames:


What exactly do you mean by "tussle" her hair?

@Alex123:

Well, fuck me sideways...

Did some daygame today on like 3 hours of shitty sleep.

Got home, wrote up my field report and took a, Power "Nap"... more like a Power "Slumber".. geeesus. Just woke up. it's 2;20am....

So I have a choice:

1. Walk outside, walk to the subway and head downtown and get to the venue area by 4am...

2. Chill out, eat my salad, watch a movie and fall asleep and wake up tomorrow super well rested, ready to go- hit up some daygame and then do some nightgame

I'm going to go with option #2... I still went out today. There is a balance between, "Pushing Your Boundaries" and just doing something that's stupid and probably will hurt you more in the longterm than actually help you.

Here's what I'll do- I'll take a walk. I'll walk a mile or so and just chat up anyone that I happen to see...

@buddhagames:

@alex: What do i mean by "tussle her hair"... hmm...

I don't know how to describe it, except that I'm... "Tussling her hair" like I'll be standing there, sometimes not even looking at her and I'll just put my hand on top of her head and start messing around with her, just like messing it up a lil

@buddhagames:

Okay, so I gotta post up my daygame sesh from yesterday.

So I was eating in the lower east side and before our meal, I was walking around and I was just like, "WOH... there are a LOT of hotties around here..." so we eat and I'm with one of my natural buddies and I'm like, "Dude.. let's just go on the street and hit on girls" and he's like, "DUDE... IM SOOO DOWN!"..

So we get out to the street and since he's a natural.. he's down for this but at the same time he's never really done anything quite like this before... so he's like, "Okay, what do we do?" and I'm like, 'Uhhh... go up to girls and talk to them" and he's like, "Do we go to bars/clubs?" and I'm like, "Nah man, not at this time... we just walk the streets and if you see a girl you're attracted to go up and start up a conversation" and I can tell he's just kinda confused lmao.. so I'm like, "Here, watch"

So I chase down this super hot blondie, open her- and she's like, "I'm married'... so I go back up to him with a huge smile on my face and I'm like, "She was married dude"... so then we get to walking and I see another cutie walking the street and so I run up to her and tap tap on the shoulder, she turns around and is a bit startled, but I calm her down and stop her and her friend from walking and we chat for like 5 minutes in the middle of the intersection and it's hooked... so I keep walking with them and we walk for another 10 minutes or so, grab the # and head back to my friend..

He "gets it" now... So we keep walking... I'm doing a lot of "momentum building" sets, where I'm just trying to be social and get into that mode where I'm fun, relaxed and just in a good space for daytime street game... so I do a bunch of blowout sets (like 4-5) and my buddy does a couple and he's also just warnimg up...

And I tell him, I go, "Dude.. just get yourself used to the blowouts- start enjoying them... just do goofy, fun shit that makes you laugh... then when the really really hot girl comes that you're actually interested in, you'll feel invinsible and can go in relaxed, fun and chill"..

So then, low and behold- a hottie comes down the street and he's like, "Dude.. gametime".. so I go up, approach and we start chatting about random shit (she's hooked), smiling, investing in the conversation and we're talking for maybe 5-10 minutes... she answers her phone and is like, "Hold on it's my EX bf" so she's like, "Hey soandso I can't talk right now" and hangs up...Then we chat for a bit longer and I'm like, "Hey, give me your #... we'll grab coffee" and she's like, "I'll take yours" so she takes mine but then calls me immediately on it.. so it's all good. And I head back to my firend

We keep walking and see a 4 set.. they are doing some funny like air humping shit so I walk up and immitate what they're doing and they are all laughing and enjoying it... talk for a bit and my natural buddy and a few other buddies who had just been like observing all of this (but not approaching at all) come up and just kinda like LINGER behind the group (I forget that like normal dudes, just literally have ZERO clue how to operate in these situatiosn) so I try and introduce them but like... even after I introduce them all... nobody is saying anything... they are just standing there.. watching me... and like it's a fucking 4 set so it's kinda killin shit cause I'm tryna hold shit down with 4 girls while like 3 of my buddies are just standing their, lurking... lmao...

Then on top of it- my buddies would just interject with random shit like, "Yeah.. bg is a lil crazy, sorry he did this" and I'm just like, 'WTF?!" hahaha and I start laughing and I kinda tossle my buddies hair and I'm like, "It's cool man, don't be nervous, they like it" and they start laughing...

Then they all leave and the girls aren't that cute so I'm like, "Fuck it... let's get some humor out of this set" so before I leave I'm just like, "So do you guys like dick?" lmao and they get offended (obviously... I was totally just fucking around at this point)... My one buddy who I'm with just can't handle that kind of social awkwardness and I can tell he's getting mad but I don't give a fuck.. This game isn't for the light hearted

So we keep walking and I hit up a few more sets, walk into this bar, nothing in there, so we keep walking and we get to one of my normal "night game" venues and I'm like, "Holy siht.. I've never been here during the day"

So one of my buddies approaches this really hot blondie- and he's not into the community at all but he goes in with this SUPER SUPER "mystery style" opener lmao.. I was dieing ... but good for him for just approaching.. you know? like fuck it... that's just where he's at right now..

He goes in and is like, "I"m running an experiment on how receptive girls are to guys coming up to them on the street" and he actually hooks her pretty hard but ends up giving her his # and peacing out.

Then there's a model across the street so I run up and tap tap on the shoulder- "hey you're cute etc. etc."... we talk for like 10 minutes and then when I tell her we should grab coffee she goes, "Oh... I have a bf"- it's cool.

SO then the two guys who aren't really doin much just leave and it's me and my natural buddy (whose fucking AMAZING at this)

So I'm like, "Okay, man... we're gonna walk back to your place but we literally have to stop EVERY SINGLE GIRL that walks past us.. no excusess.. I don't care how hot, ugly, old, if she's with a dude, WTVR- we HAVE to approach her" and he's totally down

So we start walking and a flood of girls just come our way- LMAO- I felt like I was in that really old video game, "Space invadors" and instead of little alien dudes, it was girls lolll

So we're just being absolute machines- chasing girls, pulling girls into conversations we're already in... doing EVERYTHING we have to do to approach, literally EVERY SINGLE GIRL

lol nothign really hooks- but it gets us in a fucking AMAZING mood where we are just 100000% outcome independent, having a FUCKTON of fun, laughing hysterically (especially after I approached a 90 year old lady who was with her husband and "caretaker"- still went in direct LMAO.. it was def. the highlight of the day) we were dying of laughter

So then we end up in chinatown and once again, we're cracking up cause, well, "chinatown" is probably THE WORST SPOT EVER for what we're doing... but we don't give a fuck and we're still stopping every single girl that walks past us- like it's a little absurd at this point... like we're going into some really really weird sets

Anyway- my buddy mentions this super secret, like underground bar and says how amazing it is- so I'm like, "Yeah, let's hit it up"... so we're walking there and doing a bunch of approaches and he doesn't know EXACTLY where it is so we're asking a bunch of people for directions and eventually run into these 2 girls and a dude and they're like, "Actually, we're looking for a bar" so we're like, "Yeah this place is cool as shit!" so they end up coming with us to get drinks... we chill with them for an hour or so (they aren't attractive) so then they head out and we chill for a bit longer, talk to the waitress for like 5 minutes then head out and it's POUURING OUT... like LEGIT POURING

and my buddy looks at me and goes, "Dude.. we STILL have to hit up EVERY set that walks by us" and I start laughing and I'm like, "FUCK YEAH"

So we start walking and we see a bunch of asian girls with cardboard boxes and we're like, "Hey, can we have those?" and they're like, "Sure" (lol huh?) so we take them and head out into the rain- newly equipped with our rain gear...

So we're walking and we see a 4 set of girls- 1 of them is really CUTE and 1 of them is like really HOT... So my buddy goes up and starts chattin up the cutie and I go over and start talking up the other 3 girls... it's goin pretty well.. we're both holdin shit down...

Then at one point, I'm like, "So where you guys goin right now" and they're like, "We're headin back to the W hotel" and WITHOUT SKIPPING A FUCKING BEAT, my natural buddy just goes, "Oh yeah, that's where we're going... we just got a room there" and they're like, "OMG really?? Awesome" so we all start walking back together and me and my buddy are like eye coding eachother kinda being like, "Okay.. cool... so this is good.. but like, what's our next play?" (Cause obviously we DONT have a room there, heh)

So then my buddy remembers that one of our friends IS actually staying at the W for work, so we both start calling this dude CONSTANTLY and we're like, "Yeah, our buddy has our key but he's not picking up" and it's chill...

So then they're like, "Hey, we wanna get some alcohol" so we take them into this bar (to gain some time) and it turns out their friends are there

Oh- at this point I was getting reallly physical with the hot one (she has a kid but said she wasn't married)... she was loving it- but still in that phase where she was loving it but like wasn't quite sure how to react to it

So we head in and their friends are there... like 4-5 more girls... lmao

So now it's me and my buddy holding down this set of like 8 or 9 girls and we're just like "the fuckkk"... haha this is like daytime and we're just like.. wtvr, let's roll with it... plus we'd been hitting it up for like 6 or 7 hours at this point so we were just like totally not giving a fuck...

BUT THEN- we're giving TOO MUCH attnetion to the friends and we totally lose track of the original girls we came with and so at one point, I'm still talking with the hottie but like we turn around and her friends are just GONE...

And at this point, I'm like, "RED ALERT... This is NOT good"... fuck...

But it's too late and my girl starts running off, and by the time I get my buddies attention, they are gone and we run outside and we can't find them anywhere... FUCK... we just needed more time.. we were SO FUCKING CLOSE!

So then we walk around a bit and by this time, there are zero girls on the street, so my buddys like, "Yo... kamakazi mission-" and I'm like, "Hell yeah"... so the strategy we came up with was for me to go inside and start talking to the friends again and be like, "Heyyy, I can't find my buddy- I think he's with your friends.. can you call them or do you know what room # they are?" ... and then from there, we would find a way to either get to their room or get them to come back out

So I go back inside to find the girls who were left at the bar but they are gone, and I go outside and I see my buddy is talking with them (they had left like right as I went inside) so we start chattin em' up for a bit and it turns out they aren't really friends with the other girls and don't have their number or anything... FUCK

SO my buddy gets the # of one of them and we head out...

This was probably one of the more FUN gaming sessions I've had recently... we were cracking up like 80% of the time... hell, and we really weren't THAT FAR OFF from getting these girls back to their hotel room... if we hadn't lost track of them, it couldn't happened.

@buddhagames:

Okay- so hit up some daygame with Montaigne and talent today.. it was alright. I got 4 #'s and they all were from fairly solid sets... like at least 10-15 minutes for each one... solid hooks- but we'll see... as I mentioned with Montaigne, when we were debriefing... I am having difficulty with my daygame numbers, even though the interactions seem to be going really really well.

(Just as a prefice- I didn't really see talent in field much, idk why... I just was with montaigne most of the time, so hopefully next time I'll be able to see talen a bit more so I can comment on his shit... he's such a cool guy though, love hangin with him)

So I get there and talent and montaigne are in set with 3 ugos and I walk up, say hey and just decide to use the set as an opportunity to get loostened up a bit and tell some story about how I drwe my ex a HUGE picture of the sun because she had "seasonal affective disorder" and then like pinned it to her wall so that she would "never be sad" (yeah... I'm soooooo cute)... it got them laughing and it got me a little into state because I was just talking which is good...

Anyway- montainge leaves and I leave and talent leaves, cause this set was just not worth staying in...

I immediately leave and look for sets... Walk into this "bar/restaurant" area and find a seated 2 set and approach and it mildly hooks and I just plow and chat for like 10 minutes but I don't really have an opening to sit and there are no other chairs nearby so i was standing the whole time and it just got awkward... so I leave and see montainge in set but I walk past to find another set for myself but before I find one, he texts me and so I go over and wing him.. it went alright... my girl seemed super down for the # at the end... I had seeded a date where I would bring her to this SUPER AUTHENTIC dominican restuarant near where I live and she would bring me 1 thing that represents australia... Montaign's girl was SO SO SO hot nad seemed REALLY into him... but idk, he had some interesting things to say about this set. I KNOW we missed a REALLY EASY instadate.. but oh well, live and learn

Head out and we talk for like a minute and montainge points out a blondie who was kinda behind me and I turn around and go in... it hooks... we chat for like 10 minutes or so... I'm telling her how cute she is and she's giggling and seems like she's super into it... grab the # and head back to montaigne.

I tell him to approach a hottie whose with her dad and he does and he gets blown out- but it was cool cause he did the approach and it was a pretty GNARLY situation to approach in lmao.

We walk for another 2 minutes, he approaches, I see a girl down the steps a bit and approach her and she's "semi- hooked" but then like there is this gap between us and I decide I'm not going to fill it so I standi n place and she stops and looks at me and doesn't move... like she doesn't walk AWAY but also doesn't come CLOSER to me... so I look at her and I just go, "Come here" and she doesn't budge, so I say it again and she's like, "I'm going to leave" but like doesn't move.. just keeps looking at me.. this was weird because I just wasn't sure why she was SAYING she was going to leave but like wasn't actually leaving... so then I just go, "Okay... run along" and turn away from her... It was a kamikazzee mission... oh well"

Meet up with montaigne and we talk and I go and approach this cutie whose there with her mom and 2 kids and I go in direct and say, "Hey you're cute, I just wanted to say hey" and she goes, "Thanks.. but this is creepy... Like... how could you do it IN FRONT OF THE KIDS"... so I leave and I tell montaigne and we laugh about this.. fucking HILARIOUS.. like, "How could you do it in front of the kids"... LMFAO- it's like i was beating her senseless or something... but no, alas, I was simply telling her she was cute... soem girls are WEIRD... I asked montaigne if something was off about my approach and he said that it was good, she was just weird... which is kinda what I assumed anyway.

We walk off a bit and montainge approaches some girl and I go and approach another cutie whose sitting by herself.. she's VERY receptive and we talk for like 10 minutes, I tell her I gotta leave but grab the # and she seems down to chill.. we'll see

it was a really solid daygame sesh- lots of approaches, lots of time in set.. montaigne is really solid at this... I'm looking forward to winging with him more.

Okay- so then I went out tonight to "gaslight" which is a fairly upsacale club (TOTALLY out of my comfort zone.. I've been going to ncie bars... but still, just bars) so the second i get out of the cab, I'm feeling good and I approach a 4 set of black chicks standing outside the club and they are super into me and I'm just vibing and I grab the hottest one of the group's number and head into the line.

I get inside and, literally, my state just DROPS... I was tired (had been gaming NONSTOP for like 13 hours at this point), sweaty as hell, hadn't changed... all the usual excuses but really, I just felt my ego dying again tonihgt, as YET AGAIN I put myself in a situation I was NOT comfortable with AT ALL.

This place is ENTIRELy bottle service so you basically just gotta approach girls at the tables...

So one thing I'm really proud of (and this is where I can tell a DISTINCT difference between Buddhagames NOW and Buddhagames 25 or so days ago) is that despite being COMPLETELY out of state and being in a TOTALLY UNCOMFORTABLE environment.. .I hit it HARD... I literally approached like every hottie that I saw... like there was no hottie left unturned...

That being said- basically EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM blew me out.. I was feeling pretty shitty lmao... but I just KEPT PUSHING... kept opening... kept just putting myself in situations that I wasn't comfortable with...

This is one thing I'm proud of- For the past 30 days, I've CONSTANTLY been pushing to the VERY FUCKING EDGE of my comfort zone... like literally, I haven't elt myself be "comfortable" for more than like 3-4 days at a time... I've just ALWAYS been doing SOMETHING that's pushing me to that point where I have that "pit" in my stomach and just letting it be there and, despite it being there, going through the motions anyway- going in as hard as I can, approachinging the hottest girls I can, doing everything that I'm "supposed" to do... but all the while being nervous as fuck...

I really think a big part of this "nervousness" is just my ego dying... like that part of me that is "narcissistic" and wants to think that I'm "above" the process.. just COMPLETELY DIES every time I change up what I'm doing and put myself in difficult situations. It's really cool but also kinda frusterating... it's like I'm "addicted" to putting myself in totally UNCOMFORTABLE situations and it's good because I know that's what I'm supposed to do- it's almost like, the more you feel nervous at night, the better, because it just means you're improving, because you're walking right to the EDGE of what you're cool with and then playing the game RIGHT AT THAT POINT...

THAT is where this game has to be played at ALL TIMES- It has to constantly be played at that point where you feel nervous and are not sure what to do... every time you put yourself in THAT situation.. you are improving A TON.

Anyway- approach a ton of hotties and then basically burn down the venue and leave... lmao

One thing I noticed was that at these higher end venues- you don't get a ton of like "MASSIVE blowouts"...it's more like girls are just sorta polite to you for maybe 5 minutes or so and then the conversation just fizzles out and they lose interest and start talking to their friends and then I just stand there and then leave...

Good news: This sipmly means I CAN PUSH HARDER..... IM NOT GETTING REJECTED... IM REJECTING MYSELF

Like, literally, I think there were only 1 or 2 sets where I got an actual "blowout" .... the rest were just sorta like polite conversations that died...

I think part of it was that simply by being in that environment, I was already pushing my boundaries A LOT .... but then on top of that- approaching all of the hottest girls I could find... I just didn't allow myself to escalate or say shit that was interesting... it's cool though cause i'm playing "at the edge" and that's the BEST place to play.

It KILLS the ego... pushes your comfort zone and FORCES you to run game, out of state and in situations that make you STRONGER. Like every tiem I come off a night like this- there is this just sorta "calm" almost "delerious" feeling I get where I'm coming home and my whole body is just like "fried"... it's like i pushed my body and mind soooo fucking hard... soooo fucking FAR OUTSIDE its comfort zone... that when I'm riding back on the subway, I just feel like totally FRIED and sorta discombobulated... but then the next day I wake up and I'm so fucking proud that I did it...

So this is just that "next level" for me... and I'm pushing it. I'm not worried about "results" at these venues- that will come eventually... just like it started to come at the other venues I've been visiting... good stuff.

PLAY AT THE EDGE.
BE UNCOMFORTABLE
BE NERVOUS
KILL THE EGO

BE SUCCESSFUL

It can be tough to always be playing for the "longterm" because your short term results always seem kinda shitty- but that's the game... and I'm a beginner at this, but I'm pushing myself like an expert pushes himself... THATS WHY I WILL BE GREAT.

I would say that the MAIN THING that is different about me now as opposed to 25 days ago is simply that... I HAVE MOTHER FUCKING BALLS OF STEEL

Like I literally can approach ANYTHING... it just doesn't matter... like even when I'm nervous.. I CAN APPROACH ANYTHING.... AND I ACTUALLY DO IT

I'm not "that" guy that needs like 6 shots in his system before he can talk to anyoen... I have balls of steel and honestly, it's having these balls of steel that's the first step in the process... it's what allows you to get to the point where you can actually start to get good at this- because I'm now capable of doing the amount of approaches, the amount of sets that will allow me to improve. Feels good man. Feels really good.

@buddhagames:

Awesome... so I had an alright daygame session with Montaigne today.

We went down to soho- spring street area, and were hitting up some REALLLY FUCKING HOT women.

Man, it started off reallly shitty... I approached, got blown out. Approached, got blown out- I was getting my ASSHOLE TORN APART... in fact, me and montaigne were debriefing towards the end of our session, while waiting for the rain to cut out, and like I told him how I think part of it was simply that I was like nervous that he'd be like, "WTF... why is buddhagames getting blown out so much".. heh.. we had a little bro moment and told eachother we would NEVER LEAVE and we'd always be friends NO MATTER WHAT hahaha it was corny.. but awesome and from the heart so it was dope.

Anyway- got a TON of blowouts.

Montaigne had a really good critique of my game... when there are girls walking towards me and I'm trying to stop them, I make my first step to cut them off, WAY TOO LATE... it's like I make that step way too late and so it surprises them and they get FREAKED out... he showed me how i SHOULD be stepping... basically, make the move to cut them off earlier and start engaging eye contact, WAY earlier.. so they kinda know what's coming

Oh- I stopped one set way earlier and got the # lmao but even in my phone I put "(Practice)" next to her name... cause she wasn't cute and I was just trying to get approaches in

Okay- so at this point, we're both just getting a ton of blowouts... it's tough, cause we were approaching SMOKING HOT GIRLS... on random streets... having to stop them in their tracks, start up a convo, and all that...all while they are probably trying to get somewhere.. but it was good because it's just another way of pushing ourselves.

Anyway- starts to rain so we head to some clothing store that has a TON of just totally SMOKING girls... I approached 4 sets in this store and got blown out by 3 of them and then the last one I lasted for a little while, montaigne came to wing but kinda bailed because he had just gotten the # of some gal who works there and didn't want to be too obvious about what he was doing... It was a 3 set, so I was talking to my girl and he had been winging me with the other 2 girls... but when he bounced out the 2 girls he was talking to like ran away and yelled at my girl to come with them... but I didn't move, so my girl stayed put and I look at her and laughed and went, "It's totally us against the world right now" and she laughed at that and kept talking to me for a bit... her friends kept calling for her but she stayed and then I went for the # and she denied it and I pushed ONCE more to get it and she was like, "nooo"

Montaigne said I should have been PERSISTENT about getting the #, which is TOTALLY TRUE... and we discussed this- it's not because in any one given situation, it's going to actually work... but it's simply about doing shit ALL THE TIME so it becomes "second nature" and you don't even think about it. And the only way to do that is just to get in the habit of persisting every time.

Montaigne got 2 numbers at this store- he did reallly well (I saw one of the girls and she was HOT HOT HOT)

So we head outside and cruise to Bloomingdales..

I do a couple approaches and again it's just ALL BLOWOUTS...

Then, it starts to SERIOUSLY POUR... like people are yelling, "It's hailing out! It's hailing out!" and so I head over to the window cause a bunch of hotties are there and one of them goes, "Wow, it's so big" (referring to some of the 'hail'?" (As montainge later pointed out- it's like 80 degrees outside...no way it was hailing lmao...

Anyway- I hear this and immediately I go, "I've heard that before"... not even really trying to start up a convo or get a reaction (hmm, I WONDER why it worked so well.... lmfao) and she just starts BURSTING out laughing... this woman was fucking HOT HOT HOT (like 8/9).... a little southern peach from georgia (god i LOVEEEEE southern gals)

So yeah she starts laughing super hard and I start just talking to her, smilling a TON and engaging with FULL ON PIERCING AS FUCK eye contact... One thing I notice about these REALLY REALLY GREAT sets is that, without fail, I am PRESENT AS FUCK... like I was just BAM... THERE... no thoughts, no nothing... just COMPLETELY present with the moment... it was like I was just the entire "space" in front of her...

And like anythign I said it was just like going DIRECTLY to her... do not pass go, do not collect 200 dollars... just BAM

So we get to talking and It turns to meditation and it turns out she's been to the same meditation center that I go to a lot in brooklyn...

Also- I'm making a point to balance out my "value" (as mantaigne puts it) with that "aw-shucks" vibe... like consciously grabbing myself and kinda twisting my foot a little... like you would do if you were really into a girl and just like 'couldn't help it"... dude she was fucking just SO INTO ME

haha at one point she goes, "yeah.. I'm the manager" (sooo funny... it's like something a DUDE would say if he was trying to impress a girl he was hitting on).. but what's also funny is that when you're like SUPER SUPER present, you don't even think about "qualification" or anything like that... it just passes over you and like you recognize it maybe for a slight moment but then it's just gone

So then, at one point in the interaction I go, "okay, so you probably have to get back to work" and she goes, "well no... nobody is really doing anything" so I'm like, "okay, we can keep talking" and that's like ALL SHE WANTS... like all she wanted was to keep talking to me

Someone called her on her work phone and when she got off she was just like, "I'm soo sorry about that" and I was laughing and I was like, "YEAH... DROP EVERYTHING YOU'RE DOING FOR SOME COOL GUY YOU JUST MET" in lke a mockingly angry voice and she laughed at that...

So we keep chattin and after like 20 minutes or so, I'm like, "okay I'm gonna head out" and give her a hug and she's like, "yeah.. text me"... god damnit- if THIS girl flakes... I wil just KNOW that something WEIRD AS FUCK is up... like seirously guysm, this girl was AS HOOKED AS YOU CAN POSSIbly GET for the situaiton...

Like, seriously... she was so fucking hooked it was retarded... like she was the MANAGER and just flat out STOPPED WORKING for literally 20 minutes.

So fucking hot too...

@buddhagames:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qQ-15YIvH5Y- "Speak the language in a voice that you have never heard": LOVE this line. I'm a HUGE country fan btw.. so HIT ME UP with songs, if you're into this shit too. I think country lyrics are some of the deeper, more meaningful lyrics out of any "popular" genre of music. Good stuff.

I was chatting with manwhore today after my daygame sesh and I was discussing with him the question I had put to Cat and also a very similar question I had posted on his forum (http://manwhore.org/forum/content/thoughts-gamemeditationemotions)

Anyway- he was talking to me and he said that he had asked Julien about my question, because as he said, he's tried to tell me the answer before but I wouldn't listen to him, so maybe I would listen to Julien.

Apparently Julien just "lol'd" at my question.

Basically, the issue, for me, is that, on some level, my emotions empower me. They are what have allowed me to get to the point I'm at. Like yes, there are some downsides to having these sorta crazy, "manic" emotions, but you see, the issue is that I've spent 23 years learning how to deal with them... like, if you think about it- I've just invested SO MUCH into them, at this point, that accepting the fact that in order to get really really good at this, I may have to completely give them up, is a scary thought for me.

It's almost like I've attached my identity to my emotions, like they are SO a part of "who I am" that my ego, my sense of self, is tied up in them. I am so incredibly attached to the highs and the lows of my emotions, that it's almost like i am just SCARED to let go of them and see what happens... it's like how a lot of people are scared of getting caught up in their emotions, because they wouldn't know how to handle the constant CHAOS, the constant CHANGE, the constant CRAZINESS of a life ruled by emotions... lmao, for me, it's like I'm subconsciously afraid of living a life NOT ruled by emotions.

I was reading Matt's post about "why you're not good at this" and one thing that really clicked was how we create "excuses" about why we aren't good... we do everything we can to "prove" to ourselves that it "can't" be done or that we are "different"... That's what I've been doing with my emotions... Like I was talking with manwhore and I was like, "I really want to believe you man, but is it even possible... like can my emotions even be controlled".... lmao- OF COURSE THEY CAN.

And hell- the only fucking way to figure it out is to stick to the path... There is NO shortcut to ANYTHING in life. At some point, we ALL have to accept where we are, start from the bottom and work our way up... There is NOTHING in life where we can just cut in line, and make it to the top without having to go through all the waiting that everyone else goes through... we aren't somehow "different"... none of us.

So I guess the long and the short of this, for me, is the following:

1. I accept that I am addicted to my emotions. I crave the ups and as a result, I crave the downs.
2. In accepting that I am addicted to my emotions, I accept that they are a hinderence to my results with women and my results in LIFE. I cannot become amazing at this, while simaltaneously clinging to this addiction. Just like drinking, my emotions are simply a "crutch" and something which may give me better results in the short-term but are a MASSIVE hinderence to my long-term goals.
3. I accept that I have the power to detach, that I have the determination and courage to let go and see what happens. I have the courage to surrender. Completely. I have the courage to NOT fight, even when fighting SEEMS like the only option.
4. I accept that, while my ego may think otherwise, I will not die if I let go
5. I accept that this will take time and that, just like everything in life, there is a process and I have to start at the beginning and go through that process- but that, as long as I don't give up and keep pushing, I am guareentied to be successful.

Man, this cold-approach stuff is really allowing me to examine myself and come to terms with a lot of, pretty significant, issues in my life. Very grateful.

@buddhagames:

Uhmm okay, so tonight was interesting.

Went out to probably the most "exclusive" venue I've ever been to in the city.. and i was 100% SOBER... It's this place called, "Avenue" and basically it's just full of the hottest girl in the city. All models or girls with GIGANTIC asses and tits... all in heals...

Basically- it's the EXACT type of girl that I'm insecure about approaching. It was a funny night because I wasn't "in state" at all... But at hte same time, I wasn't "out of state"... I was just sorta relaxed and calm... but not like excited and pumped up and at the same time, not feeling like super tired or anxious....

Took a while to get into the venue because I was dressed like an ABSOLUTE SCRUB... but somehow I managed to still get in.

haha I legit had some random dude on the street come up to me and go, "Yo man, you're not going to get in wearing that.. seriously... you're going to have a REALLY tough time getting in" and I just smiled and laughed and was like, "Okay, man, that's cool... We'll see though"

I think there really IS something to having that total "beginner's mind"... like a guy who is used to hitting up these clubs wouldn't have even TRIED to get in wearing the shit I was wearing (shitty tshirt with an unbuttoned flannal)... but because I legit just didn't even know how BAD my clothing was... I gave it my full effort and, the entire time, truly believed I would get in

Anyway- Eventually, I get into the venue and I immediately just start gettin myself pumped but I'm not going CRAZY... just dancing and smiling and throwin my hands up and shit... bump into my buddy who is there and he's doing some approaches so I go and do my own thing.. Approach one 2 set and get blown out...

Then I go up and just grab this girl by the hand, look her dead in the eyes and go, "Hey, you are sexy as fuck" and don't say anything else... she opens right up.. tells me her name and I give her a little spin and we dance a bit and then I stop her.. pull her in, put my hands out and tell her to grab them. She does. We dance some more and then I stop her and I'm like, "I want to introduce you to my friends. They are fucking awesome" and she goes, "okay"

So I take her by th arm first (Like i am literally PULLING her by the arm area rigtht above her hand) She pulls away and then grabs my hand... lead her from the downstairs bar all the way to the upstairs lounge area/bar... I stop her about halfway up, grab her and force her to pay attention to me. Don't say anything and just look into her eyes and then pull her in for the makeout- it's on.. Pull away first and then keep wlalking her upstairs... They aren't up there, so I chill for a bit and talk to her for like a minute and then tell her we're going back downstairs.. so I take her hand and lead her back downstairs.

Lead her through the main bottle service area, back to the bar area.. see my 2 friends and introduce her to them... this whole time, it's weird... like she isn't really saying anything, or showing any kind of attraction... like she's not giving me ANY ioi's except for the fact that any time I pulled her in for the makeout she was game and she would let me have my way with her GIGANTIC ass... But like she wasn't all over me, in fact at times she would leave and walk away without me... but she would always come right back when I demanded that she do so.

Then after I intro her to my friends, I take her and we dance a bit more and we stop and I pull her back and force her to look into my eyes and I am being this like combination of very chill (in terms of my INTERNAL state) but also like VERY forceful and bossy... and so I look at her and I go, "DOES IT LOOK LIKE I GIVE A FLYING FUCK"... and then just stare into her eyes so she can see that I TRULY DONT give a flying fuck.

She keeps looking at me (whenever she would stare into my eyes she would just like giggle) and then goes, 'about what"... and at this point I legit just didn't know what to say LMFAO!... like I had no clue what I didn't care about... I just knew that I didn't care about... anything? It was almost like I was so content with how the night had already gone, that I didn't care if she walked away right there...

So because I didn't know what to say, I just kept gazing at her eyes and then she says it again, "About whattttt" and I don't say anything, just give her a knowing sort of smile and then go in for the makeout... pull back, grab her hand and lead her back upstairs.... randomly stopping to dance and grab her ass

We get halfway up and I stop her, makeout... tell her, "Come with me outside while i smoke a cigarrette" and she agrees... we go outside and a guy friend of hers is outside and he's trying to get in but he needs her friend in order to get in... so instead of letting the situation take control of ME.. I decide to take control of the situation and I tell her, "Hey, let's help him out and go upstairs and get your friend" she says, "okay" so I lead her back into the venue, up the stairs and to her friend... they chat and then we head back down and I tell her, "okay, I want to grab a cig" so I lead her back outside.. she blows her dude friend off..

I try to bum a cig but nobody has one for me... so she's like, "Here, I'll get one for you" she tries to get one for me but nobody gives her one either... so she's like, "We'll aave to go buy some" so I take her hand and lead her away from the club...

We walk like 3 blocks and an avenue away from the club... I wall slam her and makeout... I should have gone for the fingerbang (lesson learned)

It was just weird because she wasn't giving me ANY ioi's but she was letting me do whatever I wanted with her... it was like she was just some ragdoll that I could have my way with... like she wasn't pushing herslef on me at all but wasn't resisting ANYTHING either.

So we keep walking and at this point is when I start thinking she's a really high class prostitue- I think it's because it was just TOO FUCKING EASY... like I wasn't in state at all, I wasn't being loud and obnoxious.. I was just... being... a very calm, relaxed, version of me...

But yeah- SHE WAS SO FUCKING DUMB... it was rediculous... like she would ask me a question and then ask me the same question like 30 seconds later and she had NOTHING remotely interesting to say... like everything she said was either really really really dumb or just SUPER SUPER cliche.

So yeah... I legit thought she was a prosty... like so much so that I didn't try to take her home because I SERIOUSLY thought she was going to scam me of my money

Like after SHE buys the cigarrettes for us, we're smoking outside and she goes, "sooo... should we go back to the club now" and before this she had mentioned how she lives iwth her parents and I'm like, "Let's go to your place" and she's like, "We can't go to my place" and kinda laughs... she was just waiting for me to take her to mine... but for whatever reason I just didn't ask her... I just... I just thought she was a prostitue

Like I can't describe to you guys how EFFORTLESS this pull was... like it's never happened for me like this before, so I think I just got in my own way and legit just didn't know how to handle it. Like I was so insecure that I thought the only way it could be this easy was if she was playing ME...

So we end up goin back to the club, making out, grabbin her ass... grab her # and then she finds her friends and leaves

Oh- BTW: I checked her facebook and she is DEF. NOT a prostitute... everything she told me checks out... interesting....

@buddhagames:

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Way to kill my boner I had to stop jacking it 2/3rds through your story.

The only prostitutes I've ever seen in the club would just dance by themselves it easy to get to places and eye fuck everything. Then guys would go up, they would dance with them, then whisper something in their ear before they ran off

@icewahine:

So for today's field report, I want to just start it off with a bit of a transcript from a conversation I literally JUST had with manwhore, after getting back. So after describing my night to manwhore, he goes:

Manwhore: Congratulations
Manwhore: You have now run game

So, I am currently sitting here, about to write the field report of the very first night, I actually ran GAME.


Oh boy... tonight was yet another interesting night... I notice that the more I meditate and the more I go out- the more I get out of writing these field reports because it's like in the moment, I don't really think about something but then at the end of the night, I'm like, "wow... I did that really well.. and here's WHY" or.. "wow... I need to improve in this area... and here's WHY"... Like my understanding of the game is rising, because it's like all the theory starts to become attached to the reality of what I'm doing.

Anyway- decided to head to PhD- rooftop of the "Dream" hotel... another one of the super super exclusive venues in the city...Meet up with Distant Light outside the venue and he helps me and this girl I'm with get stamped (Thanks so so much man. That was really cool of you to come down and hook us up like that)

So we get in and I immediately go to the closest bottle table see and chat up this ugo girl from mexico just to get things started.. she's not interested so I plow for a bit and then head off and just do a quick little walk around to get a feel for what it's like to be in this place, sober... get a feel for the vibe, the layout, where tables are, where people are, where bathrooms are, where bars are... etc. etc.. but also just to relax a little

See distant light again and he has a pretty sick spot right up against the wall that is money for grabbin chicks as they walk by and so I kick it next to him and do 2 quick little warmup approaches, just putting out my hand and grabbing girls or getting in the way of them as they walk by and just going direct... both are blowouts.

Distant Light hooks a really tall hottie so I decide to do a little walk around outside to check it out. Get to the end and chat up these two women who are from somewhere in Europe... plow a bit and they are laughing and kinda engaging in conversation a little but then mention that their husbands are right behind them lmao... I say it's cool and we chat a bit more and then they decide to leave...

I see a blondie chiln up against the wall just a little bit ahead of me and make eye contact and walk up and say hey... it doesn't open at all... lmao... I plow and ask some chode questions just to get her talking.. she is answering my questions but also kinda rolling her eyes and looking at her friend and laughing but I keep plowing.. at one point she kinda backturns me but I keep talking and get her attention back...

Then I take a thread from one of our convos about her being from brazil and tell her I've only ever been to costa rica... she says how much better brazil is... I tell her I went to costa rica to surf and go into a super detailed and passionate talk about my trip to costa rica, surfing and how beautiful the ocean is and how amazing it feels to go to the beach, at dusk, and just sit right at the edge of the water, where the water barely rushes above your feet.and to just sit there and relax and feel the moment...

Slowly...

She begins to hook...

She's super super into this.. starts to just give that very slowwww nod of understanding and says how she TOTALLY knows what I'm talking about...

She mentions how she lived on the beach in san diego- I tell her I lived in mission beach for a little and go into super detail and passion about how my buddies place was RIGHT on the beach and it was like 20 steps to the ocean..

Slowly...

She's been hooked.

Then she mentions something funny about gay people so I launch into a HILARIOUS story about how my buddy tricked me into goign to a day party at the hotel we were at that turned out to be a gay party and it was literally ALL DUDES... and how we ended up running around in our boxers, doing cannonballs into the water and soaking the bottle service tables, getting harrassed by security, and how I was telling other gay dudes at the venue that my buddy was also gay and a model and just broke up with his bf and how he ended up being surrounded by a group of 7 gay dudes all buying him drinks and he comes running to me like, "WTFFF mannnn"...

A lot of other random details to this story.. but basically it was just a VERY NATURAL masssssivveee dhv story... but totally natural and on the spot and true. I'm a high value guy, so obviously I have high value stories to tell and I am charasmatic, so I tell them in a high value way.

She is DYING of laughter... keeps telling me to keep telling more of the story

Slowly...

She's becoming attracted...

As she starts to laugh- I start to physically escalate... very slowly but smoothly... initate it by grabbing her hand and just saying, "Okay. Focus" then letting go of her hand... that's all it takes, folks... something small but purposeful and done on a high note, to get things started...

So then half way through the story I tell her, "Okay, I'm going to finish this story when we're at the bar and I have a water to drink.. come with me"... she agrees, quickly tells her friend and leaves

Oh- also... I ABSOLUTE HAVE TO give MASSIVE props to whoever the fuck these two random dudes were that came in. They were either PUA's or just SOLID naturals... they noticed her 2 friends just standing there, alone, not talking and didn't come to talk to me or my girl AT ALL... just picked up the slack and each one of them isolated each one of the friends so we had all three girls engaged in individual conversations, in a sort of triangle formation. They were GREAT wings and I had no clue who they were... but they winged, quite literally, PERFECTLY

Anyway- lead her to the bar (which simaltaneously isolated her from her friends completely).... DistantLight comes by to check in cause I had called him to ask a favor and I just mention how I had just met this girl and we'd be chiln for a bit... he's really cool about it and realizes what's up and quickly leaves AND agrees to try and help me out with the favor (can't tell you how cool distant light was to chill with... he was super super helpful and very aware of situations and knows how to handle shit... great wing to have- even though we didn't really see eachother that much cause we both were doin our own thing.. it was good to have him there and I really appreciated everything he did for me, with regards to getting me into the venue etc.)

Anyway- so I keep talking to my girl, physically escalating mroe and more- putting my arm around her waist, tossling her hair, pulling her head into my chest and giving her small noogies and stuff like that... finally get my water and I take her hand and lead her around the entire venue (supposedly looking for a place to sit... which was kinda true but really I just wanted to lead her around)... we finally get back to the door to the outside and we stop and we're talking and I have my hands around her waist, holding her in tight and I can tell she wants to be kissed but I'm holding back... so she takes matters into her own hands and goes in to mouthrape me... I playfull deny her... then moments later go in and makeout with her... it's fully on

Take her hand and lead her outside again and we sit down at a bottle buyer's table and he's really cool about it and says we can chill there... chat up their table and joke around with the bottle buyer and the girls at his table... they all love me. They are also HAMMERED and at one point I turn to my girl and I'm like, "THATS why I don't drink..." she starts cracking up...

So now, we're completely isolated, I've led her around the entire venue, she's attracted, we have massive rapport so I start just telling her all about everything I'm SUPER SUPER passionate about and care deeply about. I start telling her all about how amazing it is to just be in the moment, completely relaxed. I tell her how amazing it is to feel COMPLETE gratitude for life. I talk to her about how fucked up and crazy the world can be, I talk to her about how much I love rooftop bars...

Then at one point she just looks at me with COMPLETE anime eyes and goes, "You are such an incredible man"... well thanks, girl... I'm glad you can see how incredible I am.

We chill in this spot for like another hour or so until we get kicked out because the bottle buyers want their full spae back... at this point I grab her hand and tell her I wanna go get food so we leave and she's telling me about how her roommates are waiting up for her (She had previously texted her friends that they could leave without her) and she has to go home to them... i walk her around for a while, looking for a place to grab a salad... can't find one so I'm just walking her around... walking her around... Try to get back to her place- no go... try to get her to come to mine- no go... FUCK

Grab the #, makeout, test for compliance... tell her I only want to text her if she's going to respond... she promises she will and wants to hang out more...

She leaves...

So yeah- another night, another super high end venue, another pull, another night without sex... frusterating but at the same time I'm CLEARLY CLEARLY improving, so that's dope.

Also- Tonight was a MASSIVE MASSIVE MASSIVE breakthrough... I had NEVER successfully plowed before... and tonight I did it. I brought her from completely ignoring me and not wanting to talk to me... all the way to telling me how incredible of a man I am and pulling her out of the venue.

So, as manwhore said, "Congratulations BG, tonight you ran game"

It was a good night. Massive breakthrough... a solid 2 hour set, where I got the pull from a super super high end venue with a DAMN cute girl... awesome.

Really happy that I went out tonight and pushed my boundaries YET AGAIN... just showing up was the real success... everything else was just extra.

Props yet agian to Distant Light for helping me get in the venue. Cool dude. Will be glad to wing in the future.

@buddhagames:

Tonight was interesting...

Gotta write it up tomorrow

BIGGEST LESSON:

Do not EVER EVER EVER give up on a set.
Do not look to the girl for signs of when it's the "right" time to make a move
Do not let "little rejections" spiral you into blowing yourself out

But it's good that I had an off night... Becuase I know that off nights simply mean that my body is readjusting to a new level of game and that it is preparing for the next jump... so I'm totally prepared and ready to accept whatever results come in the next couple days/week/weeks... becuase I know that all it means is that am still improving and that I am preparing for launch.

The reason I think it works like this is because so much of what you HAVE to learn in the game can ONLY be learned from failure... so it's like you go through some massive "failure" nights and you learn these INCREDIBLE lessons and then they become quickly internalized and you have some really amazing nights because of the lessons you learned and internalized and switched some thigns up... then you have a shitty night because you stumble upon a NEW sticking point... then that gets handled eventually and you have another couple nights of incredible success... until you stumble upon your next sticking point

And as you get better- you have less sticking points in general, so your bad nights are fewer and far between.

@buddhagames:

Okay, so last night was interesting. It was actually really good because I gained a valuable lesson.

Two of my best friends who I haven't seen in a month or so came back out to nyc, which was awesome... so I went out with them.

Met them downtown at a bar in the lower east side. Walk in and it's pretty tame... there aren't many girls there at all. So I do a little walkthrough- find my buds.. SUPER happy to see them.. talk for a bit and then I wlak around to check out where the girls are (if any)...

I see a 3 set of really hot girl sitting down and I see two friends of mine and their gfs... those are all the girls in the entire venue...

Go back to my buddies and it turns out- the 3 set is with them..

Oooo wow- so looks like I'm back to social circle game for the night... Talk to the 3 hotties and none of them are being that receptive to me... so I decide to just chill out and talk to my buddies and relax because I know that these girls are going to be around us all night and there is no point in going into that "try hard" mode, where I'm constantly trying to talk to them.

Chill out , talk to my buddies and we're discussing where we're gonna go next... People are talkin and wtvr and then one of my buddies walks outside with the three chicks.... I wakl out to meet hiim and I'm like, "YO, Where you guys going" (Talking to the 3 girls) and they're like, "We don't knowwww"... so I'm like, "You're coming with us" and they're like, "Okayy where aer we going" and I'm like, "Bars" and kinda look at my friend cause I don't know where we're going lmao...

My friend just takes one of their purses, grabs me and is like "Let's just walk"... so we have one of their purses and me and him are walking off and so they follow us and get into a cab with us.

LMFAO- THIS is why I absolutely fucking LOVE my natural buddies- They do SO MUCH that makes me feel like they are a part of the community.... Like they are SO UNBELIEVEABLY COOL about me doing random cold approaches around them, about doing shit like this (where we just take their purse and go)... Like these guys just know how to handle social tension, and they don't trip out when I do crazy shit (partly becuase THEY do some fucking crazy shit too).... Like they can just handle any social situation that we end up getting into...

Anyway- we hop in a cab with these girls and we go to this lounge called, "The Skinny Lounge"- It's a fucking SICK SICK SICK bar right next to an awesome meatball shop in the lower east side... the girls are HOT and there aren't like a TON of dudes.

So we get in and I see a cutie and walk up and introduce myself and we end up chattin for like 10-15 minutes but then at one point she's like, "I feel like you're going to makeout with me" (but like kinda in a... please don't... sorta way) and I'm just like, "Nah, I wasn't" (Like I really wasn't... I knew it wasn't the right time) and she's just like, "No, I think you were" and I just didn't know what to tell her, cause I really wasn't lmao... I think it was just the crazy eye cotnact creeped her out (That's another thing... this eye contact is a gift and a curse... like when it's not dialed... it just comes across SUPER creepy... but when it's dialed it is the KEY to the game)

So I had her isolated (but I think I went for the iso a litttle too early) and then she grabs her friends and starts ignoring me and i plow for a bit but then decide to go grab my friend...

Go back and meet up with my friend who are with the 3 girls and I chat them for a bit and they are still kind of cold but it's okay... They are standing in the walkway that's super narrow so I tell them we should move to a more open space where we all can talk and they agree.

So we head over and i start really talking to the hottie- doing the same shit I did last night, just talkin bout shit I love and she's connecting a LITTLE... but it's not QUITE there... but we talk for maybe 10 minutes and I tell her we shoudl go sit down, so we go and sit down and talk and she's leaning in to whisper into my ear, talkign to me, paying attention, investing in the conversation... Everything is going okay...

So I grab her hand and tell her to come with me to get some water... she holds my hand for a bit and then pulls it away and follows me to the bar and while I'm standing waiting for my water, she goes, "Where's my friend? I need to find her" and she walks off to find her friend...

So basically, I internally just FREAKED OUT over this... got super buthurt and just completely STOPPED taking action on this girl, LMFAO.... Like I don't know what I was doing... I just was like, "WELL.... ITS OVER... DURR" when in reality, it wasn't even CLOSE to being over... I just was trying to fast forward an interaction and take it to places it wasn't meant to go yet... the PROPER course of action to take in this situation, would have been to go back up to her, RE-isolate her on the couch and continue to talk to her for a wihle... THEN.... Once shit was built up again... GO BACK and basically start over and lead her back to the bar, lead her upstairs... but basically she wasn't ready to be led around by me yet and so that made her slightly uncomfortable and I took this and got buthurt over it and just.... GAVE UP...

So yeah, this was a LEARNING EXPERIENCE...

Also- I truly think that when I had her isolated the first time, there were a cuople opportunities where I could have gone in for the makeout... But I was looking for a "sign" from her... which is gay... I should have just fucking BEEN A MAN and gone for it... calibrate later... My buddies know how to handle awkward situations, I know how to handle awkward situations... everything would have been cool... I just decided to be gay.

OOOO- AWESOME... THIS is why I write these field reports... holy shit... I realized a major issue of mine is being too afraid to get rejected when going in for the makeout... It's like i have this weird fear that it will kill the interaction... when in reality IT WONT... I have NEVER blown out a set by trying to go in for the makeout and it is something I want to start doing...

ALso- I think that even if I do get rejected, it shows MASSSSSIVE intent. I need to JUST FUCKING DO IT... PUSH THAT BOUNDARY... You see, sometimes, when pushing boundaries you have to almost PURPOSELY do something that ISNT correct, just so that you can see where the line is... That's what I'm going to start doing with makeouts.

So after I get buthurt, I just give up on her- go outside, chat up the bartender, hit on her in front of the blondie for a bit and grab her # (Not a solid # though)...

Blondie ends up goig home with some dude she met there... I'm not even mad... I totally deserved this, so wtvr.

BUT..... By the end of the night I DID end up getting her #... so we'll see.. maybe it can be salvaged if I can get a day2 out of her

Other than that it was a REALLY FUN NIGHT... I kicked it with my buddies, went home with them... and it was fun as shit

@buddhagames:
Oh- and props to me- I have OFFICIALLY COMPLETED my 30 day challenge : ) Feels Good Man

This is a topic that I'm fairly interested in, based off of some stuff that happened last night. I'd love to get a conversation going on how this plays a roll in a successful pickup.

Basically- I personally, noticed myself rushing the interaction. It's almost like, once you know what you need to do in any given set, like once you know what the stages are and what the different elements of a pickup look like, you kinda start to try and "Force" these elements into the interaction.

Like, does anyone else notice themselves trying to "force" attraction, and then getting a weird reaction from the girl, like, "Why are you staring at me"... ha! Too funny, lol so I got that one last night, then I also got another one from a girl last night who goes, "Do you ever blink?" lmfao!... derp

I think the reason I got this was because I was trying to "Force" attraction... rather than just giving eye contact, from a place of being a solid dude with a story to tell.

Like here's the thing, when I'm in the zone and talking about shit that I'm passionate about, as the girl from two nights ago said, "I'm an incredible man"... I'm unique... I'm smart as fuck, attractive, charasmatic, successful, accepting of myself, non-judgemental, positive, supporting of others... I have all the qualities of a seriously ALPHA guy... But here's the thing- It's now time to get to a point where I really UNDERSTAND this about myself and can just consistently express this and convey it.

Anyway- back to the topic at hand...

So yeah- I found myself, last night, trying to FORCE the different elements of a successful pickup.

I was trying to "Force" attraction
I was RUSHING to "lead" the girl
I was RUSHING to "isolate" the girl
I was RUSHING to get physical

That's the pitfall I found myself in last night... I was RUSHING every part of the interaction and then getting buthurt when it wasn't working....

What do you guys think? I feel like patience is just so important for this stuff.

@buddhagames:

Damn, so I didn't post any POSITIVE from last night:

So some positives- I don't think 30 days ago I would have even gotten to a point where I was isolated with the blondie... like I DID get that far and I don't think I would have ever have gotten to a point where I was even THINKING of making out with her...

Like my ability to CREATE the envionment where a pickup can take place is getting better and improving every day... so this is good.

It's always just about putting "Little" pieces of the puzzle together...

I truly don't give one iota of a fuck about my results at this point... I'm going out every night and just doing it. I'm just fucking doing it. And that's what matters. Like one year from now I can't wait to look back and just LAUGH at these initial postings.

@buddhagames:

Not much to report on tonight.

My buddies who I haven't seen in a month are in town and they were packing, so I just went over and kicked it with them and then forced them to come out with me to some local bars and I did one approach because there was one girl in the bar, lmao... nothing happened.

The girl who was a "sure thing" bailed... I think I know why, too.

It was totally on, until I basically told her I just wanted to go to her house and fuck her... ugh. Annoying but wtvr... lesson learned and I'll probably still fuck her at some point.

@buddhagames:
Okay, so tonight was an interesting night. Went back to my main venue for the first time in a while... It was okayyyy for a Monday. The girls just weren't THAT hot... that was the issue. Although, I think it's fair to say that I approached almost every girl at the venue at one point or another.

I basically had 2 main sets going on the entire night. I had one girl who was with a group of friends and was into me and we made out and I got her number and we chilled basically the entire night

I also had another chick (black girl... woot) who i also was hanging out with pretty much the entire night... she was annoying and def. tested my skills and I ended up not getting her #... although I REALLY REALLY think she wanted me to pull her... ugh, she just kept getting in her own way.

I was relaxed tonight. I wasn't super pumped to go down but I went down anyway and I wasn't nervous and was able to get my approaches in and almost everything hooked decently, or it was just a mild blowout. Nothing really bothered me.

The one girl wasn't that attractive (not up to my standards)... this actually fucked with my game A LOT... Mainly because I couldn't authentically tell her she was cute... like i just couldn't do it. I couldn't give her the compliment because I just didn't find her THAT attractive... pickings were slim tonight, folks... but I figured it was worth stickin it out, mainly just to practice different shit.

The black chick though was a VERY VERY interesting set. Basically, I was walking down the stairs and she made eye contact with me and I was just like, "Who are you" and it hooked hard, and she was like, "Where are you going?" and i was like, "Downstairs' and I was like, "let's grab a drink" and she was like, "okay" so we actually go upstairs and i get a water and she's like ALL OVER ME...

I go in for the makeout and she rejects me.... I don't get phased... keep talking... and then she goes off and starts dancing with her gal friend... I go up to her and look her in the eyes and I say, "I am going downstairs..." and she's like, "nooo, stay here" and I just go, "I will be downstairs... I want you to come down and get me when you're ready to focus on me"... she begs me to stay upstairs a bit... but still insists on dancing with her friend... I decline because I didn't want to just wait around for her to be done with her friend (and I had the girl downstairs I was talking to)... she tries to kiss me... I reject her... she gets mad... I kiss her... (I shouldn't have)

I go downstairs and have her phone with me... so I know she has to come down to get it...

I start chattin up the other girl and her friends... the black chick comes down and sees this and clearly gets jealous (but in a good way) ugh, I'm tired... but basically, she goes back upstairs and I tell her I'll be up in a bit..

Go up and grab her and she starts dancing with me... but then she keeps going off and I once again draw the line for her and go downstairs... chat up the other girl

Go back up and see her with some dude...go up and grab her and she comes over to me...

The dude tries to amog me and come into my set but I literally just COMPLETELY ignore him.. turn my back to him and he tries to get in front and I just keep turning my back and I go, "Do you know him?" and she's like, "No.." and I'm like, "He's a creep... don't talk to him" and she smiles and then he comes back and i just hold her in an embrace/hug thing and look her in the eyes and I say, "Do NOT talk to this man... focus on me" and she does as I say.

I then isolate her and she sits on my lap... we're talking and she's super attracted...

It's weird because at one point she's just like, "I don't get you" and I'm like, "okay..." and she's like, "You're either on drugs or you're crazy"... haha she's just never met a man like me. She was CLEARLY the type that GETS OFF on being all flirty and getting dudes to chase her... I just wasn't having it.

She's seriously confused... pretends to kiss me a bunch but it just doesn't phase me... she's confsued as shit... keeps insisting that I'm on drugs... she's like, "It's okay.. I'd rather you be on drugs than crazy" and I'm like... well... I'm not on drugs?

SO maybe I'm crazy ; )

She goes to dance with her friend... I go downstairs with her purse... she comes down and goes outside to smoke a cig with some dude and I don't see her again for a LONG while

Chat up the other girl more... isolate her halfway down the stairs... talk for 10 minutes... bring her the rest of the way down, grab a water and then lead her outside to grab a cig and we makeout etc..

Go back inside... black chick is dancing with some dude... I go in and grab her hands and she comes to me...

I think the dude was a pooah cause he just laughs and looks at me and goes, "Nice play"...

Ughh... so she just keeps playing these weird cat and mouse games and at one point I'm just like, "Fuck it... it's not worth the effort"... so I just stop chasing her entireyl and she does her thing...

It was actually a good night. I felt really calm and unstifled.. was standing on the tables and dancing... having a blast.. talked to almost everyoen at the bar (girls AND guys)

Do one last set downstairs with 2 really hot chicks... open and it's SEMI-ON... chat up one of them for like 5 minutes but then she ends up blocking me out.. not sure what happend here exactly...

Anyway- it was an alright night... funny though because a month ago I would have been like, "HOLY SHIT TONIGHT WAS AMAZING" lmao.... coulda pushed for the pull harder with the one girl, but wtvr.

It was a pretty average monday night... wtvr

@buddhagames:

Okay, so just got back (540am) and tonight was another interesting night. I went to a new venue that has one of the most rediculous tuesday night scenes I've ever been to.. it was legit better than saturday nights at the same spot.

Anyway- I wlaked in and felt calm, relaxed, chill... not too worried about any night's individual results... it really just doesn't matter to me, becuase even when I do start to be like, "Fuck... I'm not getting laid, mannn" I then just think of where I'll be in a year and it reinforces in my head that THIS PARTICULAR NIGHT... just DOES NOT matter... AT ALL

So anyway- hit up a few sets, went alright.

Opened one super super hottie and at one point in the interaction she seemed to be getting genuinely attracted but then something happened and she just got turned off... I thiknk part of it was that she was with 1 other friend and without the friend being occupied it was gonna be tough.

Walk around a bit more and see a cute blondie with a friend and go up and approach, I literally just say "hey"... lol she says "hey"... I just look into her eyes... she laughs and starts up a conversation..

We talk about random shit and her friend is there, so I include her... I forget all that we talked about... I initiate some small physical escalation stuff..

Montaigne is there (we didn't go together but I knew he'd be there at some point) and he poitns to a girl he's with who has a friend he wants me to wing... only issue is that his group is RIGHT NEXT to my girl and her friend... So I go over to his girl's friend, introduce myself and start chattin her up..

I then go back to my girl and tell her exactly what I'm doing, "Hey, so I'm just winging my friend.. I just wanted to tell you this because i think your cool and I didn't want you to think I was some huge DICK who was just blatantly hittong on another girl right in front of you" she responds really well to this and is cool with it

So I go back to winging montaigne and I decide to try and bounce all 6 of us (me, him, his 2 girls and my 2 girls) to the back of the venue so that we can all chat together and I can merge the two groups... making it easier for me to wing him while simaltaneously gaming my girl...

I introduce the idea but his two girls say that they are leaving... so that's cool. wtvr.

He sees his girl out and then comes back in and does me a huge solid and wings my girl's friend basically the rest of the night until he ends up leaving to go meet up with a girl at a venue across town.

My girl keeps wanting to grab her friend and/or keep eyes on her... it starts to annoy me but I don't say anything at first... She's very jittery.. just in the sense that it's hard to get her to stand still and just hold down a convo with her... she keeps wanting to dance.. so I roll with it

At one point, I lead her to the bar so that i can "grab a water" (excuse to lead her and simaltaneously isolate her)... I'm starting to notice that it doesn't even matter what happens after you lead a girl//isolate her like this... just the act of doing it is enough to create that psychological effect that you want.

We chill for a bit at the bar and then my girl goes and grabs her friend. montaigne was doing an AMAZING job of occupying the friend... my girl just KEPT wanting to grab her.. which I thought was weird, because i KNEW my girl was itnerested in me and it wasn't like the kind of thing where she was trying to get away from me... so it was a little frusterating and confusing..

So at one point, I just tell her, "Hey, stop always grabbing your friend, I want to spend some time with you alone and it's frusterating that you keep doing that... it's annoying" she responds well and says that she's sorry... but then explains that her friend has a bf (this is wihle montaigne is making out with her LMFAO)

So then we all head outside to grab a cig (btw- this interaction prboably lasted about an hour in total... maybe 1.5 hours) and I'm chattin with my girl and montaigne is chattin with his... eventually my girl is like, "Okay, we're leaving' and that's when I go in for the makeout... it's on.

She says that she is goign to take her friend to her bf's apartment for wtvr reason..

I ask her, "How long are you going to be there for?" and she's like, "Not long.." and I'm like, "Okay, let's meet up after" and she agrees

So they leave and montaigne leaves to hit up the other venue.. I decide to stay, because I want to push this thing till the bitter end and if I had left because of a "fear" of her flaking, I wouldn't have even had the chance to see if she was actually going to flake..

So I stay and head over to a bench and chill for a bit... just waiting... send her a text saying we should meet up soon.. she responds, "dope" lol

I head back into 13 step and open a few more girls... nothing hooks majorly, which is cool.

I'm noticing that there are DEFINTILEY a lot of sets that I'm losing simply because I don't have a wing for the friend.. wtvr

Anyway- walk back outside and give my girl a call.. she answers and I chat with her for a bit then ask where she is.. she says she's at her apartment, I tell her I'ma head over.. she gives me the address and says her friend and her are just watching american wedding...

I head over and when I get there they are just chiln on the couch, smokin some weed and watching the movie... offers me a toke and I decline (used to be a HUGE stoner.. don't enjoy it anymore)

I put my arm around her and she says something about needing her space... I don't freak out... doesn't really alter my state.. I'm cool with it and just back off a little

her friend eventually passes out and once she's asleep, I go in for the makeout with my girl.. it's on

makeout for a bit, pull back and watch the movie.. go in again and she says, "I just want to chill" so I'm like, "That's cool" and continue to watch the movie for a bit

She starts to look tired so I go, "Are you bout to pass out?" and she's like, "Yeah" so I stand up and grab her hands and lift her up... and I'm like, "Is that your room" and she laughs and goes, "yeah... do you think you're going in there?" and I don't respond.. just makeout with her as we walk into her room.. she turns off the lights and I climb up into her bed with her...

she gives me lots of lmr... so we fool around a bit.. mentions that she's on her "period" (bullshit)... but wtvr, I'm cool with it.. we just talk a bunch, fool around and then I say I have to go, so I climb down from her bed (it was a lofted bed with a ladder)

she comes down and we talk a lot more (probably 20-30 more minutes) and I'm joking around with her and stufff... we make plans for thursday to go to a hookah lounge.. should be fun if it goes down. We'll see..

She was REALLY REALLY into me... I can tell she fucking LOVES me

She kept saying how much it sucks that she's on her period and how she really wishes she wasn't... wtvr

I end up leaving...

UGHHHHGHGHGHGHGH...

ANOTHER PULL...

ANOTHER NIGHT OF NO SEX.

It's cool though- I made it to her bed this time...

FIRST TIME MAKING IT TO THE GIRLS BED SINCE I STARTED MY CHALLENGE.... WOOOOOT

@buddhagames:

Okay, so tonighti s a night which, at the end of the day, provides an INCREDIBLE lesson.

So I show up at my first venue (sickest wednesday night out of anywhere I've been) but I get to the door and they are legit not letting anyone in... the NYPD had just come and shut them down... so I'm like... fuck...

I had zero alternative planned out. This place is a GOLDMINE on wednesdays and I was totally ready and in the zone for it. So I stand outside and decide to head to a place nearby... get there and it's shutdown as well.

Decide to head to another place downtown and the door is closed and the doorman is inside and it's locked.

Head to another place and it is closed becuase it was a "slow crowd" tonight and they decided to shut it all down early.

Head to another place and it's alright, but there are 4 girls in total.

At this point, I'm totally out of state, a litlte pissed and I had alerady given up. It was a weak moment for me.

Head to one last place and get in by myself... Walk inside and it's poppin. Music is blaring, tons of girl... But then I realize it's ENTIRELY dancefloor game. There is ZERO area to talk and chill.

I get flustered and leave.

I head home.

Tonight I approached 3 girls. It was very disturbing for me and left me feeling empty and dissapointed in myself. I should have just sacked up and done some approaches at the final spot. I also did not do any street sets, despite there being an abudence of girls on the street. I let my emotions dictate my actions.

The lesson learned from tonight is, in any situation, no matter how shitty I feel, no matter what the external circumstances are, I can always be taking action. Tonight, I didn't and I take full responsibility for that and I will not let that happen again for a very very long time. THAT MUCH is entirely in my control.

@buddhagames:

So tonight I went out and for the first time in the enirety of my 60 day challenge, I did not approach NEARLY the number of girls that I should have. I approached three girls the entire night. For someone who has told himself that he is an approach machine, this was rather disturbing. It really got me at the core.

When I was heading home, I just had this really empty feeling in my stomach, a feeling as if I let myself down, a feeling that, in my head I think I'm "better than this" but my actions didn't show it and so, for the first time, in a long while, there was a discrepency between the way I thought of myself and the way I acted.

I went to 5 different venues and 4 of them were closed. This put me in an emotional state that was not going to, "help" me, perse... But it was certainly one that I could still game from.

Tonight I let my emotions dictate my actions and I'm not proud of that. I'm dissapointed in myself and don't want to let this happen again. Focusing on my actions has been what's gotten me this far and will be what allows me to succeed at this, but if I let what happened tonight, become a pattern, it will corrode any progress I have made and prevent further growth.

That being said, I understand that I have to have the humility to accept that I will not live up to my own standards, every single day. I can do it the majority of the time, because it is something that I do have complete control over. I have complete control of whether or not I do my approaches and make the best decisions I can at the time... But even with that, comes the neccesity of understanidng that, sometimes, we fuck up. Sometiems we do things we are not proud of or do not do things we should have, despite completely having the ability and control over ourselves to do them.

This is where humility comes into play. I have to understand that I will not be perfect every night. Even in doing the things that I have complete control over, I will not be perfect every night. I can come close. I can always put my best foot forward but I have to accept that I will not be perfect. I will not take the action I feel I am capable of every night, even though, on some level, that is exactly what I strive to do every night I go out.

Additionally, I have to have compassion for this side of myself. I have to haev compassion for the side of myself that makes mistakes, for the side of myself that is scared, upset and chodey. I have to have compassion for the chode that still lives insdie of me. Because, despite all the progress I have made and the progress I will make in the future, that chode will always exist on some level and I have to have just as much compassion for that chode as I have for the successful, empowered, action-taking, monster that lives through me the majority of the time.

This post is about balancing the three different emotions that i feel right now and understanding that all three have their place.

1. Having the maturity and discipline to understand that I am responsible and empowered enough to always be taking action, despite how hard my emotions fight to dictate what I do.

2. The humility to understand that I will not be perfect.

3. The compassion to still love the chode inside of me.

@buddhagames:

Had a day2 tonight..

Ended up fingerin her and shit and then getting LMR... AGAIN....

It's cool though, each night I'm getting closer... the process is working through me.

Not gonna lie, I was frusterated after this happened tonight... but it's okay.

@buddhagames:

K, so some cool things to note bout the day2:

I could have kissed her the entire night but decided to wait it out and see how that worked... it was aight. I think it was fine because it was VERY VERY obvious I could have done it the whole night (she knew it and I knew it)... she was laying on me throughout the entire movie

Also- we were watching some movie about how some contamination spreads and everyone basically gets sick and dies and I switched up my humor from last time. I thought my humor was good last time but it wasn't "manrapie" enough...

This time around, I had her laughing just as much but she was simaltaneously calling me "an asshole" a "dick" and "cold hearted"... Basically, whenever a really cute kid would come on the screen I'd be like, "Yeah... I hope he dies" or, "Yeah... he's the next one to go"...

Also- when we got up... I just walked right into her room and got under the covers of her bed... lmao, she walked in and was like, "You have some balls"... gave me resistence at first... kept going for the fingerbang... eventually she started moaning and she was WET AS FUCK... I could feel it through her pants... but then I had to stop fingering her so that I could take my pants off and it was then that she took the moment to stand up and in that really firm tone be like, "NO... I Don't want to do this" and at this point I was really really fucking pissed and I just let it out...

I got up and didn't say anything. Buttoned my pants, put on my shoes and didn't say anything and then at one she goes, "Wait.. you can't be mad.. you HAVE to understand" and I just looked at her and was like, "Uhh.. no... I don't understand and I don't need to understand. Bye"

I let the door shut behind me as she was yelling for me to come back.

We'll see how this plays out. I was pissed. Maybe, maybe not made the right play.

@buddhagames:

So I need to write down some thoughts I have for myself. So basically, when I say "you" I am really just talking to myself.

As we continue on our path, we have to constantly be willing to let go of the burning coal we hold in our hands. It's so silly, how tightly we hold onto it. We clasp it tightly, within our grasp and refuse to let go, despite the pain we feel from the heat. Despite the burns, we continue to hold on because we never knew that letting go was even an option.

Funny enough, letting go of that burning coal isn't just an option- it's the only sane thing to do. The process is the river of life, it pervades everything and anything that has existed or will ever exist. There is no escaping it. The only escape we have is to be a failure. The only time I feel comfortable even using the word "Failure" is in this context because it doesn't even exist. But if an escape from the process did exist- it would be failure.

There are really only two options in life:

1. Resist the process
2. Completely surrender to the process

If you are not completely surrendering to the process, there will be pain, even if just a small amount. At any moment, though, if you surrender completely to the process and let go of that burning coal, there will be no pain. Life will go smoothly. There is no other way.

It is because of our clinging to the results of our actions that we feel so inclined to resist the process and thus feel pain. This resistence could be called our, "Ego"... Our ego is PETRIFIED of the process... why?

The ego is scared of the process because it is the only thing in the universe that can completely destroy the ego. A complete willingness to surrender to the process results in an ability to flow with life that results in inner peace and there is just no longer any resistence. There is no longer a resistence to where we are, currently, in the grand scheme of the process.

Each night we go out, we should have as our goal to completely surrender to the process. We should not go out with any hard and fast, specific "Goal"... Just to go out and live through the process is a good enough goal. A focus on results limits our ability to relax into the process of life. To relax into life itself, for there is nothing more to life than this thing which Taoists call "The Way" and I've been referring to as "The Process".

RSD speaks of being "unreactive"... well you cannot be any more unreactive, than someone who has completely surrendered to the process. For everything that happens is a part of that process and thus there can be nothing which is a surprise. Nothing which is a setback, nothing which harms us.

The only thing which actually hurts, the only thing that causes us anxiety or pain of any kind is our unwillingness to give in and accept where we are in the process and that the process is all there is. There is no skipping it, there is no avoiding it- there is only giving in to it and resisting it.

@buddhagames:

IM BACKKKKKKKKKKK

haha so tonight was a really good night and a not so good night both at the same time... I think I'm just unnaturally positive.

Positives: THE APPROACH MACHINE IS BACK.I felt like shit when I first went out, but I just did not let it effect me AT ALL... I took MASSIVE ACTION tonight and literally PUT MYSELF IN STATE... like I wasn't getting the RESULTS that I wanted, but simply by taking so much action and approaching a FUCKTON I was able to put myself in state and relax and, towards the end of the night, just not give one iota of a fuck AT ALL. Tonight I went to the gans on the eastside but it was PACKED so I left and met up with another guy from rsd "mike" who was at a different bar pretty close. Get there and hit up probably 15 sets, probably more.. maybe 20... Meet up with a buddy of mine who shows up and we do some sets... it was weird.. I was approaching like CRAZY tonight but nothin was really hooking that solid, so it was a fucking FANTASTIC NIGHT in terms of my action but a pretty shitty night, with regards to my results.

But it's weird- like I feel SO FUCKING HAPPY AND CONTENT right now... and it's because I did so many approaches. Like even before I left 40/40, I would have been content to go home.. but my buddy and I decided to walk down to meatpacking and we did a bunch of street approaches on the way

Get down to meatpacking and we decide to do street sets down there.. do a couple- keep getting these really "lukewarm" hooks... where it's like kinda hooked... they are being nice, for a bit, but then they are like, "Alright... we're headin out"..

We're walking down the street and I see Katalyst in with a 3 set by himself so I walk behind him and sorta motion to let him know I'm there... he signals for me to come in so I go in and introduce myself and wing him and we end up chiln for the rest of the night..

Katalyst is the real fucking deal folks. He's not getting lays right now, apparently, but I have no clue why. His game is LEGIT AS FUCK. The guy hooks like THE HOTTEST GIRLS and, technically, he just does everything that I don't do... it's great to watch and learn from.

Me katalyst and montaigne are gonna start going out together most nights... it's looking like it could develop into a really solid little NY crew we got over here.

So anyway- we do street sets the entire night becuase we just can't quite get the right girls that we need in order to get us into the club. But between us, we basically hit up every girl on the street. lmao, literally.

We went HARD on the street for probably two hours. I personally approached at least 20 sets... probably more. I didn't really miss anything. Katalyst did the same. It's so sick to go out with another approach machine, whose also cool and has his shit on lock. Feels good because it's like you both know you got your shit on lock and you're both taking action and enjoying the process.

Just watching katalyst, I am learning so much. The guy is WAY WAY better than me... (Check out his field report: Moving Things Forward) the guy is an ANIMAL. At one point, he had gone out for 100 nights in a row... so he's put in the time and, I promise you, in short time he'll be the biggest pimp in NYC... I'm calling it right now. I feel grateful just to be able to go out with him.

SO yeah- in terms of results, I was way off tonight... nothing really hooked- although, towards the end, things started to hook a LITTLE better... my physical escalation is going to improve LEAPS AND BOUNDS being around katalyst- his shit is SO SMOOTH, like I'd be talkin to my girl and still just chattin her up and I'd see katalyst out of the corner of my eye fucking waltzing around with his girl, grabbing her hands and I'd just be like, "FUCK... gotta step my game up"

But towards the end of the night, I was getting more physical, simply from being around katalyst... I'm seirously so pumped to have found a super sick wing in the city... both him and montaigne are AWESOMe... really really excited to start hittin it up 3some style in nyc. Like all three of us go fucking HARD and take MASSIVE ACTION... I just love it.

Anyway- so me and katalyst head back to his car and he drops me off at the subway and I get out and I was kinda looking around for "one last set" and I see this girl crossing the street and I just put out my hands and I'm like, "Heyyy what's up!" almostl ike I already know her and she just opens right up and acts as if she's known me forever... get real physical, real fast and then in like 3 minutes I'm making out with her and we walk to the subway and we're chattin and I'm like SOOO TIRED at this point, I just don't give a fuck AT ALL

So then we make out, I grab her tits, squeeze her but, go in for the fingerbang which she rejects, but then she's like, "Can I just crash at your place for like 5 minutes before I go home?" and I'm like, "Sure"...

So we go out and decide to get a cab and in the cab she starts fluctuating in mood and I just run a lot of push on her and basically just keep putting her in her place... I was just so tired that I was being kinda a dick and then I get her to the corner deli at my place and I'm like putting her hand on my dick and she's rubbing it but then is like, "We're not having sex if I go to your place" lmao, so I'm too tired to deal with this crap, so I'm just like, "Okay, wtvr... goodbye" and I leave her at the dlei next to where I live.

lol I probably could have just seen how far i got with her in my bed... but I was sooo tired and didn't want to have another girl in my bed, not fucking me.

It was crazy though how literally the LAST SET OF THE NIGHT... like on the street, next to the subway, I ended up pulling... despite ALLLLLL my other sets the netire night, hardly hooking at all...

But I am so happy and so content because I feel like I'm back. Tonight I was back to being the approach machine that I know that I am. Just feels good to be taking action and doin it up again. Was a good night, despite the results.

@buddhagames:
Ugh, so summary of tonight.

ANOTHER PULL....

ANOTHER NIGHT OF NO SEX.

On a more positive side: I GOT MY FIRST DAYGAME MAKEOUT TODAY... WOOOT FOR ME!!

So anyway- montainge, katalyst and I officially joined forces for the first time and created the NYC "YOLO Dream Team"

We started off by hitting up a day party in katalyst's neighborhood... so much to write about, will have to do that tomorrow. I need sleep.

Then after the day party we hit up the meatpacking and went to a SUPER SWEET Saturday venue which was fucking EPIC...

I'll go into more detail tomorrow... but basically I chilled with this girl for the ENTIRE night... did EVERYTHING right... seeded the pull, led her around, physically escalated, broke through LMR... EVERYTHING...

Was like, "Let's go get some food"... took a taxi to a pizza place. Got pizza... took a taxi to her place.. she was saying how she wants, "To get breakfast in the morning..." AKA: YOU ARE SLEEPING OVER

Get out of the taxi and, I will go into more detail tomorrow, but I basically scream at her, just trying to get her attention and she FLIPS OUT and runs away...

fucking my ENTIRE night was spent with this girl... we were going to fuck... there was zero question about it. I can't describe to you guys the feeling I had in my stomach after this happened.

I wasn't angry, I wasn't sad, I literally just had the shittiest pit in my stomach.

This is like my 4th pull in a weeks time and I have yet to have sex... shit is getting rediculous guys.

She was a hot club slut too- the exact kind of girl that I've been nervous of in the past.

Idk if katalyst or montainge saw any of the interaction but I'd love to hear their feedback... Like it was going so fucking well, it was stupid. I was feeling good... just self amusing like a mother fucker... dancing like crazy, pushing JUST ENOUGH and then giving her JUST ENOUGH pull so she'd come back but always flirting with that line... it was such a good set... lasted the ENTIRE night...

And then I fucked it up with just ONE LITTLE THING... at the VERY END..

I'll write more tomorrow... It's late. I'm tired. This was rediculous lmao... but it's the process and I'm okay with it- just have to accept and acknowledge how I felt and then tomrorow I'll move on.

I potentially have a date with a super hot, tall as fuck, model that I met at the day party... we'll see how that goes. Then two more dates that I have set for Monday so if one of them flakes, I'm still good.

@buddhagames:

For those of you keeping track at home... this was NIGHT 37/60 in a row. ALMOST 2/3 of the way there. woooot

Okay so went out tonight and it was okayyyy

Hit up my first venue and it's as dead as dead can get. Like at one point they actually closed the upstairs because it was so dead (something i've never seen happen)..

So I send out a mass text to a bunch of dudes asking if anyone has a venue that's going off..

Get a text back from distant light saying to come through his spot... hit up this place and it's fucking DOPE AS SHIT.

Like it's the kind of place, where I actually kinda wanna just go back and rage, without going specifically for cold approach... Like if some of my buddies wanted to throw down for a table and have a bday party their or something, it would be super sick

They had hookahs, dope music, alcohol, hot girls- the vibe was just very cool.

(Once again though- gotta give HUGE ups to distant light for hookin me up with a solid name to drop at the door.. lmao... I don't know who the fuck these people are that I'm sayin at the door but every time, i just get let right in... also, tonight I was dressed MUCH MORE appropriately than last time so it wasn't an issue at all)

Anyway- hit up this spot... as cool as it was- it was a VERY TOUGH venue to game at. The music was SUPER SUPER loud and the way it was set up, all the chicks were on the INSIDE of these table groups, so I couldn't really get at them... but it was fine..

I walk in and immediately hit up a 2 set sitting down... doesn't hook... I'm not nearly in state yet

Walk around- do a bunch more approaches.. nothing really hooks

Then I just relax and decide to chill out and enjoy the venue for what it is... Like just guinely enjoy the music, enjoy the vibe... I really like these kidns of places and sometimes I feel like i just put too much pressure on myself to approach approach approach constantly... so I just chilled out, walked around, got a feel for everything

Get back on the dancefloor and open some girl- she's into it.. we start dancing and she's grinding on me, holding my hand etc...

I start jumping up and down and I'm just feeling good and really enjoying the music... all of a sudden like a fucking chant starts up around me lmfao... I'm like, "huh?" turns out like both tables to my left and right are chanting at me being like, "yeahhhhhh"... so I'm like, "oh okay" and start goin a little harder

Girls are like staring at me now lmfao... and I'm just dancing my ass off and my girl starts grinding on me more... dude comes over with alcohol to pour into people's mouths and I'm just like chiln in the middle of all of this rockin out... promotors were cool with it cause I was bringin some fun..

Start dancing with my girl more and occasionally stopping to give her eye contact and say some shit... try and go for the makeout but it's not there... then she peaces out

Keep dancing, doin my thang... do a few more approaches but nothing really hooks.

It was an awesome venue but at the same time, pretty tough, in terms of cold approach just cause of the way it was situated and with the music as loud as it was.... but for a SUNDAY- lmao... seriously epic... I mean, this is the kind of shit you hear about when people say how sick new york nightlife is.

Head out and cruise back to my first spot and it's still dead but I go in and talk to two fatties for like 45 minutes just cause it's fun...

Head home.

It was just a pretty lowkey night... nothing really hooked... did a bunch of approaches but nothing crazy. It was one of the those nights that brings you back down to earth and makes you realize that not every girl is going to talk to you... sall good. Tomorrow is another night ; )

All of this is part of the process.

@buddhagames:

SANNNNN FRANNNNNN BOUNNDDDDDDDD

I really hope the girls aren't too scary : /

EDIT: HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT.... I just realized...

STREET SETS ARE GOING TO BE SO MUCH MORE FUN...

You see- in New York... it's like half the time you gotta fight the fact that PEOPLE, not just girls, get approached like 20 times a day by random people trying to sell you shit, beg from you or something along those lines.... There is no way this happens in san fran as much as it happens in new york...

I'm really hoping that this means that I'll my practice plowing with street sets in the city recently will translate... we'll see... I'm actually really excited to just get a feel for the new city.But yeah, I'm curious to see if the street sets in the city are different because people are, possibly, less used to being approaches for random shit.

I'm sure the first couple nights will be blowout nights and I'm cool with that. Just gotta stick to the gameplan that's gotten me this far:

1. Don't worry about results, take action towards manifesting the process through yourself
2. Approach like a mother fucking gangster pimp. That means- street sets, sets with moms/dads, mixed sets, 2/3/4/5/6+ sets, EVERY FUCKINGTHING- that's how the YOLO CREW ROLLS BABBAAY (I'll be reppin you guys on the west coast)

3. This goes along with the last one: But the SECOND I get into the venue- APPROACH.... Don't wait. Get in and it's gametime. Wings are there to help when IN set... They are NOT there so that you can put in less effort and "hang out" with them... This shit isn't a team game, my wings will not get me laid. That being said- obviously, have fun and be chill with wings but don't use them as a crutch. I should be approaching my first set within 3-5 seconds of being in the bar/club... get that energy up- get the nerves out and get in the blowouts.

4. Don't worry about trying to "prove" yourself to new wings... You know who you are, you know what you can do and what your capable of. There is no need to "prove" anything. Just approach like a man, put in the effort and let the process manifest itself

5. Have a blast in a new city and run around like a kid in a candy store- cause, let's be real... This shit really IS fun.

6. Run MY game... I know what I do and I know how I do it. Do MY thing and let the rest fall into place... But at the same time, always be EAGER and willing to accept constructive criticism from people who know what they are talking about.

@buddhagames:

LAY REPORT. MY FIRST SNL OF CHALLEBGE.

SECOND LAY OF CHALLENGE.

DAY 39

BOOYA TO ME. FINALLY GOT PAST LMR.

@buddhagames:

Holy mother of God.

So I'm in the airport and I saw one of the hottest bodies I've seen recently (and I go out a lot) so naturally I HAVE to approach her... even if it is the airport ... like this woman is so fucking hot.

So anyways... long story short.

Turns out she is 17 and about to graduate highschool. The "husband" that I was so worried about on my approach is actually her dad.

Like I honestly have never seen a more mature looking 17 year old. Also- the way she acted, spoke etc... very mature

If I had more time... I'd get the number and wait until she was 18.

@buddhagames:

Oh, so I weighed myself for the first time in a while today...

VERY EXCITED

So... after a fairly long journey- lots of ups and downs... lots of days where I fucked up, broke down and ate shitty food- weeks where I fell off the horse- but ALWAYS getting back on board.. NEVER giving up and recognizing that I had 2 options: STick with it or give up...

I AM CURRENTLY 5 POUNDS FROM MY FIRST CHECKPOINT GOAL WEIGHT.

I started at 255 and I just weighed myself and I am down to 225. My first checkpoint goal weight is 220. I am almost there. Very excited about this.

After I get down to 220- my next checkpoint is 200. I am doing it, folks. I am losing the weight and sticking to the process. Feels good.

@buddhagames:

Thanks man, it's a long process... Still have so long to go- just stickin to the process... ENJOYING the foods I'm eating and enjoying the process of losing the weight.

Did a little daygame today.

I was running some erands and wanted to pick up some sausages from whole foods so I get in there and pick up my sausage and see a super hottie, approach- it mildly hooks but she has a bf (she models for a living... fuckkk)

Then I'm in the checkout line and the bag girl says "hey, how's your day" and she's hot as fuck so I roll with it- end up actually isolating her and physically escalating a little... get her # and we'll see... My initial text fucking SUCKED but I can always just give her a call.

She was HOT... lots of tattoos... I can just imagine this girl dressed up with her heels etc... mmmmmmmm DELICIOUS

@buddhagames:

So just had my first night out in san francisco... wasn't bad.

Went out with U5- really cool dude, is super knowledgeable about the game.

Hit up the first venue which was ghetto as FUCK and I immediately start approaching, as usual and get blown out a few times as I'm just trying to get my nerves out...

Find an okay looking fattie and it hooks- lead her around a bit, isolate her in a booth.. go for the makeout she isn't down... asks me to take her number... I'm not down

Movign on

Do more approaches- more blowouts

See the hottest girl at the venue and she's dancing with another dude...

I go in, Hey, can I cut in" no response

Go direct on her, completely ignoring the dude.. she starts chattin with me... I grab her hands... we hold hands while she's dancing with this dude and then I just take her away and lead her to the bar.. we vibe.. grab a water.. lead her outside to smoke a cig.. we vibe.. but there's no real sexuality to it.. I was physically escalating but it just wasn't getting sexual... idk what it was. End up grabbbin her number and headin to a bar right around the corner

Head in with U5.. see a girl talkin with a dude.. she's hot... GREAT fucking body.

Approach and the dude disapears

We chat for a bit.. vibe... some dude comes in and tries to amog... I destroy him. He leaves

we keep talkin and vibin- she goes to chat with her friends, I go and chill with U5 for like 5 seconds

See a bachlerette party- open them... fun times ensue

Singing, dancing, just being awesome... steal one of the girls' stunner shades

Walk back over to the first girl.. vibe.. escalate.. makeout...vibe..

She talks to her friends again.. I go back to bathlerette party.. dance.. sing.. pick one of them up and swing her around... she's loving it..

Go back to the other girl.. vibe.. makeout.. grab her ass, grab her tits... she tells me, "This is as far as it goes" ... I say, "okay.."

Go back to bachlerette girls.. back to initial girl.. escalate.. vibe...

Get super sexual with her- tell her we should meet after.. she wants to. she's grabbing my dick, getting super horny

I leave the set for no reason and go to find U5... head back into venue and talk to her again... I think the pull is on

U5 gives me the keys to his apartment (ULTIMATE WING STATUS RIGHT THERE)

she's like, "I don't have a bed for both of us" I say, "I do" she says it won't work out tonight cause they are staying so far away...I just took this at face value and decided to get the #

The pull was there though- I should have just waited it out until they were all leaving and then grabbed her and fucked her in my car... she was rubbing my dick- super horny... I just left the set for no reason...

We get outside and U5 is just like, "Dude.. why'd you leave that set" and I'm just like, "uhh... idk actually..."- I just had to stick it out and she would have been down.

We agreed to meet tomorrow and as collatoral I now have one of her earings... lmfao- so if she wants to get her earing back she has to meet up with me. ULTIMATE FLAKE DESTROYER

@buddhagames:

Wow, so tonight was my first serious night out back in NYC... it was... pretty fucking SOLID

Started out by hittin up a super exclusive venue in the meatpacking but the line is RETARDED LONG... so I'm like, "Fuck this.. I'ma wait for the rest of the YOLO crew and figure this shit out then"..

So I head to beergarden and I see a buddy pua of mine and he's in a set and I just walk in and like he introduces me to one of the girls and idk what it is but immediately she and all her friends start talking about me... I didn't even do or really even say anything. Just introduced myself and she and her friends were like, "Omg... you KNOW who he looks like blah blah blah" and then the cutie blondy goes away

So I look at the girl my buddy introduced me to and I tell her that I thought her friend who just left was super cute and she's like, "You should go find her" and I laugh and she's like, "no, don't do that" but laughing and stuff... then I'm like, "Text your friend and tell her I think she's cute"... so the girl texts her friend how I think she's cute and that we should talk...

So the blondie friend gets back and her friends all purposely leave so that we can be alone... the girl even commented on it- she was like, "I think all my friends just left on purpose" and I"m like, "Why would they do that?" and she's like, "You must have made a good impression and they obviously trust you enough to leave you alone with me"... HA! literally... her friends just fed me a fucking slam dunk- it was silly. So we chat for a bit and then I tell her I'm gonna go grab a water so we head to the bar... I don't sense any serious "signs" from her so I just go in for a makeout and it's ON like DONKEY KONG...

Soon as we makeout she's SUPER into it... grab my water and I'm fuckin around with her tellin her how I'm in the "Witness protection program"- it's hilarious though cause she legit BELIEVED ME... I had to tell her I was fuckin with her lolll it was hilarious

So we keep makin out and chiln, I'm grabbin her ass and all that- we head back over and her friends are there and they tell her they're leaving and they are like, "You should stay with him" but her ASD is way up for some reason and she's like, "Nooo I have to leave" ... but i get her to stay for a little bit and then montaigne calls me so I head out with her, meet up with montaigne and grab her # and makeout a bunch and then tell her to leave in a joking way. She's way into me and like 15 minutes later I get a text from her just sayin, "hey" Coolio

Me and montaigne decide to try and get into the exclusive venue with the retarded line so we start hitting up TONS of streetsets... I'm hooking everything- super money

End up hooking this one super tall blondie really really hard and we chat for like 3 minutes and then I make out with her on the street and she's really into me so I tell her to text me when she's with her friends and we'll get them into the venue we're going to... She wants to

I see montaigne in set with 4 FUCKING RETARDED HOT chicks and so I go in and they are cool with us and so we bounce them to the venue... these girls were STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID HOT!! and we show up at the venue and the doorman STILL DOESNT LET US IN... me and montaigne are just standing there like.... wtf....

Like literally there was nothing mroe we could do- they were probably the hottest group of 4 girls on the streets in that area out of ANYONE and we STILL didn't get in- the line was STUPID long. So we try to bounce them to another super exclusive venue but they wanna go to Lavo and that's super far so we end up splitting with them

Ugh- not gonna lie- the logistics of getting into this venue were fucking RETARDED... We were basically just going STRAIGHT PROMOTOR GAME so that we could get in- just hittin up all of the hot girls on the street to help us get in...

It gets a little tense for a bit cause it's just a super time sensitive and pressure type situation cause we're trying to get in quick but a lot of these girls just want, "10 minutes"... and it's like, we don't have that kinda time... so we basically just have to keep HITTING HITTING HITTING to find some girls that will go with us.

Katalyst had already gotten Montaigne in so now we just needed 2 chicks to roll with me and katalyst so that he could get me in.

Finally I hit up a 2set on the street and after some slight plowing they are down to roll with us- so we bounce them to the venue- doorman STILL is being a HUGE FAG and doesn't let us in... it's retarded, we brought him a total of 6 SMOKING HOT girls and it wasn't enough... like idk what he wanted.

Anyway- we cut right into the front of the MASSIVE line and since we have 2 chicks- the doorman grudgingly lets us in. FINALLY

lmao- I cannot tell you how hard this was...

literally had probably 4-5 different groups of girls who were "Hooked" pretty hard but we just couldn't bounce them quick enough but wtvr... it's all in the past- we got in... that's all that matters.

I want to say this- if you have not been to New York... you have not TRULY played the game.... this shit is where your shit is seriously tested. .. ESPECIALLY with these high end venues- it's fucking tough and so so so fun at the same time.

So we get in and I'm a litle flustered from the stress of tryna to get into this place and I'm just gettign TONS of blowouts at first... like just blowout after blowout after blowout... But I'm approaching like a madman and finally shit starts to hook when I get this one decent looking brazilian chick with HUGE HUGE HUGE tits hooked and we start makin out hardcore and grabbin her ass etc..

She ends up peacing out eventually... I should have really pushed harder for this pull but wtvr

I'm standing in the stairwell and meet another one of katalysts old wings and I see a cutie walkin past and grab her and we chat for a while- bring her upstairs... kiss her- she resists.. keep going for it and eventually get it.
Grab her # and I bounce off- she's gonna respond... super hooked

walk around a bit more and see a smokin hot blondie whose wearing a white shirt with no braw... she's basically like just as tall as me which is HAWT in my book.

So we chat for a bit and again- I'm not really getting signals but wtvr... grab her # and then just go for the makeout and it's HARDCORE ON

She's SUPER SUPER into it... we start making otu a bunch, i'm grabbing her tits under her shit

We basically chill for most of the night and I go for the pull but it's not there... I basically just took her hand and tried walking out with her without saying anything but when we got to the door she wasn't down... she's gonna respond to my texts though and we'll meet up... she was super into me.

Idk I get a few more #'s and maybe a makeout or two more... I approached a RETARDED AMOUNT... can't even remember it all- but I'll check my phone tomorrow and get all my #'s

At the end of the night I had 2 or 3 girls from the night already texting me so that's solid.

It was a good night- went through the ups and downs. Started off literally just on fucking FIRE... like HOT FIRE...

Like montaigne was even like, "Dude.. that shit with the blondie on the street was nuts"- it really was... Sometimes I even impress myself... she was STUPID hooked and has already been texting me a bunch

Then I got into the venue finally and went cold

Then worked my way back and ended up having a decent night there- bunch of #'s a few makeouts... and all at one of the most exclusive venues at the city..

WOW- it's crazy to think back to the days when I would show up at this SAME venue just like.... SUPER SUPER NERVOUS and then to think back to tonight and just see how fucking relaxed and chill and easy it all was... like even when I was getting blownout- I still felt at home at this place.. no nerves... just chiln out and having a good, relaxed time.

Some positives- I noticed with my street sets, I was being VERY VERY persistent and this persistence was actually getting me hooks... this is something I've been working on for a WHILE every since I met montaigne and katalyst and tonight was basically the first night that it started to really CLICK for me

Also- I went in and just WENT FOR THE FUCKING MAKEOUT with a bunch of girls who were giving me ZERO signs... this was HUGE- it was the first night where I really did this... like literally girls would be giving me ZERO signs and I'd just go in for the makeout and it would just... well... BE ON... this was HUGE HUGE HUGE

SO yeah- lots of positives from the night... I really felt like i was doing some of the things that I hvaen't been able to do in the past. Glad I went out

HUGE PROPS to katalyst for getting me and montaigne into the venue- even though we def. brought enough SUEPR SMOKIN girls to where the doorman should have been letting us in without waiting in line, no problem... but wtvr- that's New York for ya.



I get a text from her like 15 minutes later asking if her and 2 friends can come to the venue with me... It doesn't work out cause I'm with katalyst at that point and he's basically the fucking MAN and is SO SO SO GOOD at getting into high end venues so he basically hooks me and montaigne up and gets us in

@buddhagames:

Explain in detail the escalation from nothing to makeout SVP.

Like what are you doing/thinking/feeling and same for her. Manwhore-esque details.

I'm half drunk tonight.... Shitttttt haven't been drinking much at all lately so these drinks hit me kinda hard. Going to be either a really good night or a really bad one haha. Okc chick was dtf but doesn't get off work till later and I'd rather be at a club than with her.. Oh well.